Ginger Ladd - Unnatural Evolution (Part One) Lyrics

There comes a point when the lines
Between right and wrong
Reality and fantasy
Begin to look like they're melting

But I've realized that what others might call
A descent into madness
Is something else entirely

This isn't madness

It's an evolution

A transformation that's been long overdue
Designed to rid the world of its duplicitous tormentors

I used to think I could control everything

My OCD, that unyielding need for order
For, for perfection, always worked to my advantage
It kept me grounded, focused
Obsessed with understanding the lines that separated good from evil

I was consumed with being the good boy
The one who followed all the rules
The one who could somehow make my family love me again
Despite their constant rejection

But, but when you've been pushed to the shadows for so long
Something shifts in the darkness

Shifted so hard even my shadow
No longer lines up to the new shape of my body
Shift hard enough
And you start to see the world for what it truly is
What once seemed unimaginable becomes inevitable

I wasn't always like this
I used to care about fitting in, about being liked
About pretending to be normal

Every choice I made, night and day, a deliberate
A calculated, it
It was a desperate attempt to win their approval
To be the perfect son, brother, friend, lover
That they could finally accept

But every rejection, every sneer, every laugh
It chipped away at me
Eroded the person I once was until
Nothing was left but my raw, burning core
Needing for something more

More

The high, the high wasn't enough
I needed to go further, to see just how far I could push

After my physical transformation
I was a new person
Practically unrecognizable

So with a box of hair dye and some colored contacts
I decided to try something different