Ghosty - person i hate Lyrics

Yesterday I sat in a car with a girl that I love
And she told me that she didn't feel the same
I proceeded to say every mean thing that I could think of
My mind split, I wanted to shift the blame
Will you please forgive me if I hurt you like they hurt me
Even though I didn't mean it, this is not who I am
I don't really blame you, I would've done the same thing
It's just that I can't live without your fingers in my hand
Today she told me that it's hard to go back to how it was
I've hurt her in so many different ways
I went home and felt it, the pain you feel when you don't say
The thing you really mean to and your life gets in the way
Will you please forgive me if I took back everything
If I erased both our memories like it never happened
I would do anything, literally tell me anything
So I can say your name and see your face once again
Tomorrow I'll have cried for a straight 24 hours
Because I wish I could take back what I said
I've become the person that I hate
I hurt you in so many ways
It's poetic how I lost what I've never had
Will you please forgive me if I knew you like you knew me
And I didn't say the things that were really on my mind
That would've been better than the shitty thing that I did
That way you can still be here right by my side
I want you to be here
I need you by my side