I can act like I never really care
That many people only wanna see me bleed
Deep down it kills me
Misery loves company
Said you hate me well congrats I do too
Said you hate me well congrats I do too
I can act like i never really care
But i swear im scared
Lookin back id say I would change everything
Shed my skin and throw it down the kitchen sink
Know I'd erase every trace of existing
To counteract the turbulence I seem to bring
But mistakes will always stay unchanged and follow me
My faults metastasized hurt people close to me
And I know all of the people see the worst in me
But maybe they have a point and it's just honesty
Maybe it's all my fault
Maybe im the reason i'm alone
Maybe I've pushed away everyone, by twenty one, to let me see them vulnerable
I didn't want this for me
No I didn't want this for me
And you don't have to feel bad for me
My Favorite thoughts are where i'm vanishing
Sick and tired of sitting in the shower though
What's the use i still can't fill my own damn needs
And seeing friends change into people I don't know
Makes me wish that I could tell the younger me
It's gonna be okay don't let them get to you
They'll parade all your flaws for the whole world to view
They'll try to change you into something they approve
It will consume every path that you choose
You hate me but just wait please
In more ways than one I'm just like you
And you think that all these things
Are just sitting right out of my view
I didn't want this for me
No I didn't want this for me
But all I got is what's in front of me
I just hope it aint too late for me