Gearshift - Work in Progress Lyrics

I start to think my thoughts
And I do this a lot
I tend to get lost
And that costs me a lot
But still I fight that fight because that fight needs to be fought
Or else I'll just be caught by my thoughts
And I'll lose my flow
And my motives get lost
And that brings my down low
And then I'll just be a slave to the thoughts I think and I thunk inside my head
Sometimes I think I'd just be better off dead
So obviously I want to die
But do I
What if that's just a lie
Created by him in my own mind
I'm trapped inside my no good stupid human mind
That doesn't seem to care about my sleep schedule I've come to find
But I don't care cause I've just screwed it up anyways
Well now I'm on a ledge all because I couldn't go to bed
With all these thoughts that roam my head
Now its leading me off the ledge
Towards the point of no return
Because I keep on remembering the stupid deeds
Done by the stupid me
Who is trapped inside this no good stupid human mind
But I'm fine
Yeah I'm alright
Of course I'm lying
Cause that's all I've ever known
But trust me I'm dying
Cause even with a thousand close friends I'd still feel alone
And I feel numb to the bone
As my skin crumbles till I'm completely alone
I've lost myself
Or at least who I precieve I am
Because this mind in a new land
That is unexplored but not unknown
But I'm is desperate need of a loan
So that I can finally settle in the land that I do not own
But I don't need u to meddle
No I don't need you to push
All I'm asking for is a little bit of help
Cause I'm not sure what to do
I'm stuck inside this no good stupid human mind
But the lie comes again and I'll say I'm fine
I'm a work in progress just learning as it goes
Cause I've got a part of me festering inside my head
And I need to learn how to put him to bed