Left me standin' here alone again
Contemplatin' the shake up, oh long it's been
Since I felt at home in here or let alone my skin
And you're supposed to the one that's been my closest friend
Who the hell am I talkin to
Should've been center of attention
But got lost in ruse
There's so many things around me
So much left to do
There ain't time to breathe
I can't make time for you
I can't make time for me
But spend it all by my lonely
I keep my hands busy working on whatever's in front of me
Sometimes I can't think
And every answers in front of me
My mind just wants to race
And all I win is a broken me
Damn
Day dreams of played scenes
In my mind
They seem to take me
Where I hide
Take me away
No I don't mind
Bring peace at least
What I won't find
I need to face me
So I fight
Maybe it's just me
That I fight
Killed me
I guess it had to be done
To be the spirit that I am
And live in memory of
To the one I said I'd wait here for you
I no longer can just hang around and wait here for you
I can't
Used to put in work and want the wodi
You won't catch up on me
Rather leave me lonely
God damn
To the one I know that's waiting for me
Do what ever makes you happy, don't be waiting on me
My plan
Is the same, I know the day will come and
I will catch up on you
I am workin' on it
I am
Different man now
I tend to stand out
Do I deserve it
Went from man down
To want no hand out
And it's workin
I ain't nervous
But my confidence
Won't come from no chain
I ain't perfect
I just rock my shit
Like it ain't no thing
Pen chirpin'
Write my wins
And my survival, my pain
Wont go to church
'Cause I know god
Is right here with me today
I medicate a better way
And meditate when I wanna
I still pour little drink
And ain't afraid of the ganja
I just operate different
I give it all that I have
You were sleepin' through the night
I'm screenin' though my note pad
On the surface I ain't what you heard
But really I'm that
Chase my purpose but my first is With me
Callin' me Dad
Taught me patients
I still really hate to wait but
But it's the process of the paintin'
Only artist get to savor
I'm the finished product waitin
What happens when I'm completed
I guess I'll be upgraded
Till my paint is depleted
Damn
Day dreams of played scenes
In my mind
They seem to place me
Where I strive
Take me away
No I don't mind
Bring peace to beasts
Give me all drive
I need to face me
So I fight
Take heed, it's all me
I take flight
Killed me
I guess it had to be done
To be the spirit that I am
And live in memory of
To the one I said I'd wait here for you
I no longer can just hang around and wait here for you
I can't
Used to put in work and want the wodi
You won't catch up on me
Rather leave me lonely
God damn
To the one I know that's waiting for me
Do what ever makes you happy, don't be waiting on me
My plan
Is the same, I know the day will come and
I will catch up on you
I am workin' on it
I am