Gadoora - Black Tears Lyrics

Minding my business, been a long time since I witnessed
A feeling so divine and I think it's, a sign from the stars to begin this
But then I see her face right in front of me
Even though she's away, she's confronting me
Been 5000 days, I don't wanna be stuck in this place nor this phase
I cannot believe I'm gonna make another song about that
Even though I really do not miss her and I doubt that
There will be another us, yeah I know I sound wack
But it's all facts , I withdrawal and then I fall back
When I recall all the moments of me being desperate
I messed with a drug that is potent , I tested some potions that scarred my emotions
Got me floating in oceans of regrets that I just kept in

Feeling foolish fighting a fake hope
Got me screwed inside and I can't coupe with the new ones
I resume some of the antiques that I used to do with her then I just panic cuz I got right back here
Breaking a heart out of nothing but fear
Blaming myself even though it's not clear
Go home , cry all these black tears

That breakup, made me not wanna wake up
I can't trust any woman that easy, cuz I can't trust myself and my inner peace is bleeding
So I search for any reason to be leaving
I believe in a thing called love but I'm not fit to seek it
I receive it, yet I can't give it back, I deceived them
That's why I'm apologising to all the women that I ended up traumatising
I fall from high when I talk them lies and then my thoughts collide
Telling my heart that I should start finalising
The spark we had , my emotional bag drags me back to an ex from the past
And it's sad, cuz I'm attached to someone who got hurt by me, and she is living without me glad, yeah

Feeling foolish fighting a fake hope
Got me screwed inside and I can't coupe with the new ones
I resume some of the antiques that I used to do with her then I just panic cuz I got right back here
Breaking a heart out of nothing but fear
Blaming myself even though it's not clear
Then go to my room, drink my black tears