It makes me lose all my sleep
It makes me so numb and weak
It makes me refuse going out
Scared of things I'll be swallowing down
I fear my own appetite
Anxiety comes after just one bite
Wish I knew it was never right
For anyone to ever starve through the night
No matter what they try to say
It just makes me someone that I hate
How did I possibly end up this way
Losing my faith in my body and shape
It's scary how mirrors they speak
So loud about things I don't wanna see
Focus on all my insecurity
Oh I'm scared that it will never leave
There's so much I wanna change
I'm drowning in so much shame
Two workouts a day
I thought I'd feel better this way
But it gets worse when I try taking a break
No matter what they try to say
It just makes me someone that I hate
How did I possibly end up this way
Losing my faith in my body and shape
It's scary how mirrors they speak
So loud about things I don't wanna see
Focus on all my insecurity
Oh I'm scared that it will never leave
Wish the younger me
Would understand
This shirt
That skirt
Don't represent
If I look pretty if I look smart
I know they don't show a thing
'bout my heart
So no matter what they choose to say
I know I'm great I'm enough in my way
Learning to appreciate this body and shape
Think I found somewhere new
To store my faith
Now mirrors they don't really talk
Cuz I stop asking them for all their thoughts
I've grown into someone I
Should be proud of
I know what I deserve
And the right way to give myself love