Frozen Willow - never said im okay and meant it (feat. Charlie Drowned) Lyrics

Ay never said I'm okay and meant it, careful which way you're treading
And every day count your blessings, I arose from a grave to a life of depression
Ay every day I'm stressing, and every day I'm closer to the end and
Ay every day the reaper's on my tail, trying to catch me
Maybe I'll be better if I let him
And I ain't felt pain in a second
I miss my blade and I miss my wrist
Hells gate where my soul is headed
And I ain't felt sane in a second
And I ain't been okay in a second
I need to take my medicine
Yeah when I say I hate everybody, it's my bipolar
Satan was the one who said it
Swimming deep, yeah I'm all up in my head again
Been knocking but I don't think I could let her in
Inhale fumes, yeah that's been like oxygen
Even if I'm dying, don't let the medics in
Feeling good, I'm feeling free up in my mind
Lost all my problems, ain't been stressed out in a while
Drunk dial, ain't made that mistake for a while
Since a child, always had my mind running wild
My life lately, kind of been in a weird place
Shoes laced, take some drugs so I can meditate
My addictions probably something I should mediate
Until I get there, I'll be wandering planes of space
And time, ain't something that I'm really worried about
But if I'm leaving, I just hope that you could let it out
And tell me how you feel, now that I'm not around
Is you coming down, or is you happy now