Frozen Willow - 5th Floor Lyrics

Stayed hidden, my days was bedridden
Or sparking up something just to get my mind splittin
Thought that it was you, but it was truth that I was missing
All the fake love was f*ckin' me up, I had to get up
With my own f*ckin' thoughts I was fed up
Like I got one that says she love me
And at least one brother that I know I could trust
But still my head wanna see me dead
For the pavement from the 5th floor, I lust
I stand on the highest elevation in the city, still I can't find peace
My last days near, I thought you'd be here with me
When I die, no you better not weep
Drugs at my disposal, whatever I want
Just to have them leave me lone, kept a smile for the front
Spend a summer in the backseat dosing up
Spend the winter half happy cos I don't gotta see nun
I stand on the highest elevation in the city, still I can't find peace
My last days near, I thought you'd be here with me
When I die, no you better not weep
I had dreams of my death
Seen a thousand of me littered through the trees
Tripping off a tab in my room while I fall to my knees
Praying relief to a God that I struggle to believe
Like how the f*ck am I supposed to be okay
When I can barely breathe and I've been drowning out everything with self-hate
I'd barely eat or sleep for like four to five days
Feel like I won't see the light 'less I create it myself
Months of mental abuse
Tried to keep you happy, all my time spent on you
That shit came to the point where I really had to choose
I was suicidal, tryna help you see the light in you
I was losing my own, let my hang up my
I stand on the highest elevation in the city, still I can't find peace
My last days near, I thought you'd be here with me
When I die, no you better not weep
I stand on the highest elevation in the city, still I can't find peace
My last days near, I thought you'd be here with me
When I die, no you better not weep