It's been many years of thinking
If only I was mr right
You would have came out that night
I told you I loved you
I told you I need you
I ran away
That day
Felt so betrayed
Full of hate
Why couldn't I be the one
You wanted to age with
Don't worry about it said Adrian
You were her best patron
Many men wanted you
But I wanted you for you
Wanted to make your dreams come true
You would have been a dream come true
I feel like Gerald you were my Gina
Now I'm stuck with Zelda
In my dreams I can't even have yeah
Haunted as if I did something
To f*ck it up
Was it because I didn't love enough
Or did I love you to much
Was it maybe because I treated you to much like a women of interest
When you only wanted to be friends
I said I'm sorry made amends
You said you cared for me but it was pretend
Because if you did
You would have not left me on read
You would be here with Me instead
Not as my lover
But as my f*cken friend
Now when I think of you
I feel nothing but dread
I could never be enough for you
Now I'm nothing to you
And you found him
He makes me insecure
He's so down to earth
His friends say word
He so perfect
And your so perfect
Both so perfect
I wish I was perfect
I wish I was him
Many times I'm so f*cken grim
I hate myself and I can't pretend
You just looked like you had the answer to live
I found in you what I lost as a kid
It was joy
It was joy
This is your song
And I thank you for what you gave me
And I hate you for what I became
And I hate you for what you meant to me
Made me forget my pain
But to you I was to insane
So I stayed in my lane
Because I'm not an angel like you
Remember going to your house
We would just be hanging around
You didn't seem bothered
No one was home not even your mother
Anyone would have mistaken me for your lover
But we just spoke
Over a bowl Of mint chip ice cream
Now inside
I scream
I lost you my friend
Beloved friend
You know these songs are of you
The angel of my stories
Goodnight and all good morning
Texts that we would send the next day
But that was 5 years ago almost 6
Devil in me fell for the angel in you
And no we never had sex
But some how I feel a deep connection with you
So why you do torture me
Why do you still talk to me
If you don't wanna see me
Then why do you act like you miss me
You told me you did
Then you just dipped
You have him
Yet still rope me in?
And then vanish
Why'd you leave all damaged
Yeah
Why'd you leave all damaged
Yeah
Why'd you leave all damaged