Flocks - Sighs Lyrics

I let your last words sink in
And I've had nightmares since
I've had plenty time to recover
But it's still registering
I'll keep an eye on Dad
Until he settles down
I'll try to make you proud
Even though you're not around

So we shared a final drink
And I've seen no one since
Left to my own ways
A stranger in my skin
So I'm crossing off your list;
I'm making good time with it
But my self-destructive ways
Have taken their toll on me

Could you hear the sighs
Of your friends and loved ones by your side?
How they wished that you survived
There's a void in time
In which my mind has lived
Since you died
I said I'm okay
But I lied

And I know you taught me more than that.
I know you'd want me fighting back
And I know you'd want to see me with a home
But I don't know where home is now
I've lost my way
I've lost my fight
I've lost my keys
For me that door is closed