Flesruoy Llik - Self-Harm Lyrics

I hurt myself it's an addiction (Addiction)
I always spit at my reflection (Reflection)
Cover the scars from what I've done to my arms
I have a little problem with self-harm

Here comes the pain, an end to my strife
As I drain the blood, I laugh at the site
I laugh at the thought of you missing me
I can't wait to make myself history
I once had good times, now I repeat
This undying need to no longer breathe
I wake up each day, go back to sleep
I lay with my bride, shes called misery
I just want to die, hate to exist
I sit here and cry as I slit my wrists
Don't call me weak, my outlook is bleak
I can't see the light, I despise my life
F*ck asking for help, that shit's for the birds
Self injury hurts less than your words
Death might be nice, 'cause life is a bitch
My blood is the sea, I'm the sinking ship

Ah, f*ck! I wanna hurt you
But I'll hurt myself 'cause that's easier to do
Anything that's skewed, will help me get by
A little reminder to make sure I'm alive
That's how I thrive, that's how I succeed
You can't want it more than someone who bleeds
Get up off these, I am not nuts
So what if I'm purposely being a klutz
Preparing cold cuts and I ain't at the deli
If I take an ice bath the blood's more jelly
You cannot help me, so don't send a heli
I'll jump out that bitch, and land on my belly
Flopped up on the nearest pond in sight
Then play Frogger in dark clothes at night
I think I might, just for the fight
Tell Brock Lesnar I been f*ckin' his wife

I hurt myself it's an addiction (Addiction)
I always spit at my reflection (Reflection)
Cover the scars from what I've done to my arms
I have a little problem with self-harm

It's the same old song and dance as the last
Recurring history, you can peep the wrist gash
It's a vicious cycle, nothing's changed from the past
Just another day, poppin' pills getting trashed
This self-affliction, is such an addiction
It's more than suicide rap, yeah it's non fiction
And this is not bitching, it's just a description
Of my mutilation, yes a gory depiction
And it's my dream, that I won't ever wake up
I just wanna bleed in the tub while I make cuts
Up and down, so the scars never stay shut
I know the world hates me, and the space that I take up
You fake f*cks, have pushed me to the point
That I wanna grip the razor blade and never look back
Give my skin a scratch, and take a blood bath
I just wait and bleed with a cynical laugh

Time for some stress relief, slash slash
Holding on to too much grief that won't pass
I wont last if I keep this up, I'm losing blood
And this time I might have went too far!
I don't expect you to care, I refuse your help
You say you'll be there, I'm still hurting myself
Coping mechanism, incision, bad decision
Death in my vision, my mind is a prison
Why am I living? Why is life so hard?
Another day, another cut, another scar
I know where I wanna be, a graveyard
But can I rest in pieces? So hard
To see myself anyplace except for hell
So I tear the flesh and rip apart myself
Oh well, you don't care, I don't care, no one cares
F*ck you! Go Away! I don't want you here!

I hurt myself it's an addiction (Addiction)
I always spit at my reflection (Reflection)
Cover the scars from what I've done to my arms
I have a little problem with self-harm