I've been waiting for lights to change
I've been waiting for rearrangement
All my times been spent
Fighting with my brain
Just leave me alone with my head
Maybe today's the day I finally do something for my health
And I'll make good on the hundreds of promises
I sat up on the shelf
I'll turn the barrel
Pull the trigger on myself
You don't have to go down with me
I'd rather be alone if I'm gonna be lonely
I've been hiding for most of the year
And I keep saying that I'm fine
I don't think I'm myself anymore
And I don't think that I mind
If I can't help myself I sure as f*ck can't help you
And I don't think I'm getting better
And I hope I never do
Maybe today's the day I finally do something for my health
And I'll make good on the hundreds of promises
I sat up on the shelf
I'll turn the barrel
Pull the trigger on myself
You don't have to go down with me
I'd rather be alone if I'm gonna be lonely
I have to trust I can pull through this
You can put your faith in me
My pride leads to mediocrity
I have to trust I can pull through this
But that's not a given
Maybe today's the day I finally do something for my health
And I'll make good on the hundreds of promises
I sat up on the shelf
I'll turn the barrel
Pull the trigger on myself
You don't have to go down with me
I'd rather be alone if I'm gonna be lonely
Give me some time I'll fix this
Leave me alone
Let me figure myself out first
Give me some time I'll fix this
Leave me alone
Let me figure myself out first
Give me some time I'll fix this
Leave me alone
Let me figure myself out first
Give me some time I'll fix this
Leave me alone
Let me figure myself out first