My mind is unhealthy
I'm needing someone to help me
I feel so f*cking lost and can't nobody seem to help me
Depressions weighing in it's attaching itself directly
Lathed onto my heart now my spirit is kinda threatening
Lately I've been antisocial for many reasons
My friends are all heathens
My exes they all cheated
I'm tryna be a good guy in this f*cked up life
I've been tryna wear a smile in the dark with no light
I be tryna to tell people how I feel inside
But all they do is knock me down and tell me it's just life
Had visions of being big blowing up with all my fam
But reality kicked in I guess I ain't doing it right
I need some peace I want somebody I need love
I need a queen that's by my side when sh*t gets rough
The kind that rather be at home instead of clubs
And keeps her close on she's conservative with the goods
So much going on deep inside this f*cking mind of mine
Will I ever blow up will I be someone they idolize
I'm tryna be patient calmly waiting on my time to shine
But all this waiting gotta n*gga contemplating suicide
I'm losing money that I barely even have
Chasing my dream investing into my craft
Bills on top of bills they piling hella fast
And I don't got a job, the only thing I got is rap
Got people telling me that I ain't never fina make it
Quitting right now will put some smiles on their faces
Don't understand why are people born with so much hatred
We share the same struggle only difference is location
You need some healing you need help I understand yo pain
I fake that same kinda smile just to hide my pain
And I don't talk about my issues to anybody
Cuz the day that y'all got issues they tell everybody,
They try to make you feel as low as the ground is
And treat you like that new kid that ain't from round here
Y'all got me feeling like I wana end my life dog
Sad part l know you'll post it for the likes dog
Prolly have all my exes acting like they love me
Lyin in their captions talking bout how much they love me
Silly b*tches all y'all did was bring me down,
When all the f*ck you had to do was have my back & hold my crown
Mothaf*cka