Fiction - Green Run! (Heat Up the Pylon) Lyrics

I've never feared the things we don't know
A story untold, crumbling in pace
But when you're near, we both lose sight of
A most unsure love, falling into place

I'm looking forward to moving forward
I spent this whole last year taking your orders
It wouldn't be so bad if I had time to pick a path and call it mine but here I am
So let's begin

Well if I knew that this was all a lie, or fate being defended
Why even try to solidify when all the pretty things are so open ended
And even if I'd seen it all, my crystal ball has been out of service
And lately late nights here without you are the only thing that makes me nervous

I often wonder, while in your slumber
Had you thought once or twice to drag me under?
And I'm not saying your intentions were, or ever went misunderstood
But I'm confused, you loved this too

I waited, you hated the patience
Frustrated, you hated the patience

I didn't mean to pause things, I only had the best intentions
I wouldn't say a waste of time, I'll settle at "distraction" though
And I'd be a liar if I said I felt nostalgic
Though the fruit punch flavored weekends make me miss my life a year ago

Why even try to solidify? The pretty things are open ended
And I'd seen it in my crystal ball, but thought I had it perfect
Or was I nervous?