[ Featuring Strange ]
Planning for your birthday dinner I was smiling, laugh and sing
Up in heaven, lost in love - Unprepared. Phone starts to ring.
When I heard the doctor talking I just couldn't stop to smile
Even when the call was over That still took another while.
How could you do that to me? How could you leave when I needed you most? ...
Now I feel utterly lost.
I don't know why I had to go as you were already dead
Maybe I needed to see you like that to beware me from getting mad.
Next days I did almost nothing staring at the wall all day
I vaguely remember some calls and some friends but nothing I wanted to say.
I just wanna cry out Keep still keep still Wait for my heart to arrive
Things rushing over me like in a bad horror movie
I need to feel human, wanna curl up and cry
I miss you so deeply and I can´t stop - I´m so alone
Still I wouldn't cry, couldn't realise Because there was too much to do
Our money´s been yours and the bankers all knew - In fact I admit I was cursing you.
About six months later I opened a box One small thing I had managed to keep
And I found your birthday present from me And finally started to weep.