Feint of Heart - Conflicting Convictions Lyrics

I can still smell it on your breath
Even miles away
While your asleep
I can still taste it on your lips
Even when I drown myself
In anything, everything

My head says run
Do I listen or stay?
My heart says it's worth
The risk I never take

This conflicting conviction is killing me
I'm committed to you
But you're committed to drink
I hate that you can't see the f*ckin' pain
The way you test my faith
With every sip that you take
I guess I'm not as good as it tastes
I guess that means I'll have to change

Yeah I can feel myself shifting every day
The way I used to sing
Becomes a memory that fades
I can feel it creeping deeper inside of me
And I begin to wonder
Whats it like to be free?

My head says I'm crazy
What does he know anyway?
My heart says its worth the risk
Just take the f*cking drink

This conflicting conviction is killing me
I'm committed to you
But you're committed to drink
I hate that you can't see the f*ckin' pain
The way you test my faith
With every sip that you take
I guess I'm not as good as it tastes
I guess that means I'll have to change

As it passes my lips
I feel the voices fade
I can feel like myself
Am I finally free?
As we laugh and we dance
Is this the only way?
As we laugh and we dance
Was this worth everything?

This conflicting conviction is killing me
I'm committed to you
But you're committed to drink
I hate that you can't see the f*ckin' pain
The way you test my faith
With every sip that you take
I guess I'm not as good as it taste
But I don't know if its worth the change