Fatal Flaw - Time to Think Lyrics

Open prairie fields
Wither with autumn's grasp
But unlike the change of seasons
This feeling is yet to pass
And the drive home
Is filled with restless thoughts
Anxiety takes its hold on me
I've already lost

I just wanna be hear
Right in the now
But I'm still clouded by a past
I'm still figuring out
And this thirty minute commute
Seems like it never ends
Guilt takes its grasp on me
I fall back down again

And I wanna be happy where I am
I wanna feel alive again
But these thoughts never leave me alone
Succumbing to them on my way home

And anytime I go anywhere
Part of me hopes I'll crash
Visions of a calamity of metal and glass
But I can't die young
I still have to fall in love
With someone who accepts me
Despite all my flaws

And I'm still scared I'll never break free
Of this weight that I guess is crushing me
And I'm so tired of the same
But I don't know if feeling nothing is better than the pain

And I wanna be happy where I am
I wanna feel alive again
These thoughts never leave me alone
Succumbing to them on my way home