Fat Stallion - In My Skin Lyrics

I know that I'm beautiful

Looking back on my life
Has it always been like a constant itch
Dry hands, heartache, these tired old joints
Butterflies in my stomach never seem to fly away

Do other hearts beat this hard
Are there other hands that shake this much
Sometimes I wonder if it's too late
Would things be better if I medicate
I've tried to hush the screaming snake
Comfort in my skin is all I crave

Please understand I'm doing the very best I can
I'm aware of my flaws, weaknesses
Yet here I am

I know that I'm beautiful but down inside
Sometimes I want to abandon life
Give up, quit, run and hide
A battle with my mind that I have to win
This downward spiral will not begin
That's what it's like in my skin

Sometimes I wonder
Was I too withdrawn to cry when I was born
Was I eloquent, did I do it right
Was my first breath relaxed or tense

In my life I've learned the art of suppression, smile like a mannequin
Here I am, and you can't tell if I'm fine or panicking
When did this become my life
Closing my door is the day's highlight
I feel I've become a slave
Comfort in my skin is all I crave

Please understand I'm doing the very best I can
I'm aware of my flaws, weaknesses
Yet here I am

I know that I'm beautiful but down inside
Sometimes I want to abandon life
Give up, quit, run and hide
A battle with my mind that I have to win
This downward spiral will not begin
That's what it's like in my skin

I know that I'm beautiful but down inside
Sometimes I want to abandon life
Give up, quit, run and hide
A battle with my mind that I have to win
This downward spiral will not begin
That's what it's like in my skin