Farfetched - far-once in a blue moon Lyrics

Chilling at a hotel you know I gotta hold well
And by hold I mean composure
When it's over it's over
But I think that this is too soon
For me to love like this is once in a blue moon
I'm too grown to be blowing up your phone
There's no point
If you don't want to talk then it's your choice
I respect it
Even though I feel neglected I'll accept it
I'll accept that you don't know what you want
As long as you call no texts and tell me that you don't love me no more
Then I'll be sure to let it rest and leave you alone
I promise
If you would be honest then we'd be better off together or apart
Matter of fact instead of a call let's link and settle this brawl
You got me feeling like I did shit to piss you off
When all I did was try to uplift you and get to your heart
I get that you're flawed but so am I at least I try
To rectify my problems testify I got them
But you on the other hand just dodge em
That's why we out here struggling in silence
Puzzling cause you be indecisive
Why does there have to be tension?
It's like we're codependent
What happened to interdependence?
You got a tendency of making a question seem like a sentence and making a sentence seem like a question so I'm stressing as soon as I make a statement
It's like how do I answer without seeming abrasive?
Got me moving evasive
I've been feeling jaded
And it's been days since we last spoke
That's why I find it hard to cope cause we we're always on the phone
Doing the most
So and so expressing all our feelings and thoughts
Now I'm lost and of course it's cause you haven't called to check in as per usual that mawkish shit I'm used to
Us communicating is more than just us conversating
I understand it's not your obligation but I'm out of patience contemplating
Fighting the urge to denigrate you
Say I hate you even though I really rate you
On some petty shit to let you feel disgraceful
But you know I'm not malicious nor hateful so I won't page you
I'ma let you do your thing
I done wrote you why you ain't respond?
You were my go-to now you're gone
But for how long
For how long?
I need closure
When it's over it's over
But it's too soon
For me to love like this is
Once in a blue moon
For real