she woulda been invited Video (MV)

I'm trying to keep my cool
I'm losing it on you
I'm making such a fool of myself
But I'm trying to keep my cool
Sitting next to you
I'm making such a fool of myself
I feel like such a loser
Sitting in this living room, mute, not moving
Staring at the walls while everybody's grooving to the music
I feel out of place
Everybody's cool here, everybody knows you
I've tried to talk around but they're not close to you
I put so much effort in this outfit
Just to sit around and feel sad at this outlet
I talked in the mirror just to build some f*cking confidence
And stomach my face for the night
I think it's obvious that I don't belong here even though I want to
I think you're so f*cking cool but-
I feel sick looking at you tonight
I waited so long just to sit and hide
I'm eating myself alive
Why can't I move? I'm f*cking fried
But even so it won't matter for long
Cause when I leave for home, even if the night was gold
I'll still claw at my heart until I'm choking on the barbed wire wrapped around my throat
I'm trying to keep my cool
I'm wasting it on you
I'm making such a fool of myself
But I'm trying to keep my cool
Sitting next to you
I'm making such a fool of myself
F*ck, dude