F8Deprived - Wanna See a Dead Body Lyrics

Maybe nothing has to change between us today
But I feel as if I've changed in some other ways
Trying so damn hard and still I'm just a waste
Hurting just to make it through the longest days
You've never felt this cold
You'll never be this old
Blood turned into gold
Weak but yet so bold

Now that you're gone behold
Skin and bones 'till mold
They all laughed 'till sold
Cards were right you fold
Not your fault I know
Never felt this damn low
Signs you'd never show
Love for you will flow
Underneath the covers
Felt just like a number
Nothing to discover
So you became discolored
Vivid like the colors
You just see them duller
What about your friends
Pain will never end
We've been your brothers

Now I'll lie this time
Say that I've been fine
Are you in the stars
Keeping me safe inside my car
It's like I'm going off the rails
I got demons on my tail
Rather hell than go to jail
Could've saved you if you let me
Knew it was time that you left me
So save yourself from this horrible place
Boxed up in a storable space
Could've saved you if you let me
But I knew it was time that you left me
Give me just a taste of the grave yard blues
Boxed up in a space that you didn't choose

Time and time again I tend to ask myself
Are you really gone or do I just need help
Inside of these walls I've contained myself
Looking at my weight damn where is my health

Crashing all around me is the snow to the ground
Looking into nature just to hear your sound
3 days straight looking at my yard
Swear that I could find you if I try too hard

Opening my mind just to sleep where you slept
Told me not to rid myself so I'm just picking up where you left
Man it's hard to say you're gone
Reminiscing to myself way too long

Drove off a cliff losing my mind now
Standing up for you losing my spine now
You could be the best guess we'll never find out
Always told me you would die in our hide out
Glad I found you I'm ripping my heart out
Ran away to find god I'm so high now
Try to find the nearest road Imma pass out
Swear I could've saved you I got no doubt

Now I'll lie this time
Say that I've been fine
Are you in the stars?
Keeping me safe inside my car?
It's like I'm going off the rails
I got demons on my tail
Rather hell than go to jail
Could've saved you if you let me
Knew it was time that you left me
So save yourself from this horrible place
Boxed up in a storable space
Could've saved you if you let me
But I knew it was time that you left me
Give me just a taste of the grave yard blues
Boxed up in a space that you didn't choose

Maybe I was never meant to find you on earth
You were inside of me
You're part of me now