ETHOS XCIX - id like to think im honest Lyrics

I can't f*cking sleep I'm feeling cooped up
Take another shot, yeah, this shit sucks
Really hate myself, I'm a bitch for lust
Got all of these thoughts, and
I can't f*cking trust
I cant f*cking
I'd like to think that I'm honest
Can't keep my f*cking word if I promised
If you're coke I'm Charlie Sheen
I'm so lost I am a fiend
Can't forget all of those times last August
Staring in the mirror but can't face my past
Wear a fake smile as I'm headed to class
It's like this whole life is a test
But I can't show up
When I wake up I feel dead I've had enough
I've been wasting all my time
Sick and tired of this rut
Either you relate or can get f*cked
Everyone is fake I've had enough
Everyone is fake I've had enough
Everyone is fake I've had enough
I'd like to think that I'm honest
Already drank half a bottle Imma vomit
Fighting thoughts since fifteen
All I do is f*cking sleep
She just want me in the sheets, Imma pop it
Been laying in my bed, think I'm gonna crash
Can't get a real job, Imma piece of trash
No matter how much that I try
It never feels enough
Take me back to those days
I miss being young
I've been wasting all my time
Sick and tired of this rut
Either you relate or can get f*cked
Everyone is fake I've had enough
Everyone is fake I've had enough
Everyone is fake I've had enough
Everyone is fake I've had enough
I don't know how to be
It doesn't get better and it doesn't get easier
I can't keep lying to myself saying that I'm gonna change
I'm poison -
I come from poison, I have poison inside me, and I destroy everything I touch
THAT's my legacy