Ethan Eagers - I Miss You E Lyrics

I promised myself
I'll never need help
Now look at me now I'm losing myself
I'm losing my wealth
I'm losing my health
They wishing me well
I'm going to hell
Love is what I thought
Love made sure I fell
I'm changing my brain
I'm going insane
I'm switching all my lanes
I'm breaking all my frames
I'm playing way too much games
I'm switching all my names
My surnames not Eagers
I pray for my niggas
They don't have father figures
They pulling all the triggers
They making their own plans
They taking all the xans
They messing with their mentals
They saying it's accidental
I'm going too deep
I learned how to swim
Sometimes I lose but sometimes I win
I feel disconnected
I need to be reconnected
I'm never selected
I'm always rejected
I'm crying in the booth
I'm sharing my youth
I'm finding the old me
The 8 year old me
Was never lonely
Was playing in these streets
He didn't care about shoes
Cause happy was his mood
People needed his help he never said no
He was the main actor in everyone's show He never cared for girls
They never made him grow
Whenever he wanted to they always said no
I'm sorry for not being the person you wanted to be
I'm sorry for not being the one you wanted to see
I guess I was too weak for all your beliefs
I guess I always suck that believing in me
I'm making this whole album cause I'm tryna find me
This life has made me lose the child inside me
I'm sitting on my own thinking where he could be
Cause when I get happy I see glimpses of him
I can feel the cries
The tears run down his eyes
Of course it's no surprise
The happiest always cries alone
On their own
I was gonna cuss from the anger inside my soul
Cause how could I lose the only boy I know
The boy with Coco Pops inside of his bowl On his face you found a smile
In his hands was a control
I remember
You were too shy
And you didn't like any goodbyes
And you never liked the end
But you always had to pretend
You always liked smoke
You never liked liquor
Now you're so old
You down nothing quicker
You need to come back
My life's under attack
You are what I lack your absence is wack
You were scared of the dark
I'm hiding within it
You always started something but nothing was finished
You counted the seconds and never the minutes
You always were big but now you diminished