Been missing days before stressing about my rent
Where my friends and I would just vent
They would smoke a bowl and play pretend
We never had a clue of worries outside of schooling and boolin'
Making movies and dodging daily duties, so truly
Shoutout to Westlake, cause he'd always keep me in frame
And on my darkest nights he'd listen to every complaint
Struggled to fit in, always felt different
But it's kinda hard when I look through a lens with cracks that tend to split my vision
Spent my youth a little mute back of the bus
My headphones in to block out bullies
Cause the target on my back was enough
I was too scared to try to talk a crush
Cause by law of social status
Chances of getting dates were slim to bust
But one day I found my voice when I picked up a pen
Been on a journey since, and I won't stop till Madison
I barely sleep, but it's my friends and fans that helped me take the leap
I cut my teeth on what I learned from Vegas streets
And honestly
It breaks my heart to see
Kids get tangled up in the violence
While we keep cutting out arts and promoting social tyrants
Who claim that my generation's the one that's f*cked
Cause they're too busy with budget cuts steady pointing blame and sparking buzz
It's pathetic, stealing ideas and taking all the credit
Bet I could do better than half the shitheads running senate
Not a politician, but neither's our president who somehow weasled his way to
Commander in chief to Armageddon
These thoughts are heavy but writings my remedy
Keeping me steady to people I come across who try to weigh me down
Day in and out, Wonder how I push through the doubts
Because I've made it this far and I kinda like the route I'm blazing now
I've got something that people want and I won't play along
And Envy's heavier than the chains wrapped around their palm
Show some respect, or place your bets when the game will rip me apart
One day I'll be puffing cigars with all the stars
Tell me why
I can't justify
What's hard to find
I'm so terrified
Cause, sunrise I'm outta mine, I'm outta mine,
Walking thin lines pushing through the hard times
Outta sight I'm outta my mind, outta my mind
Outta mind, till the day I
Grew up on cartoons, saturdays were my favorite morning
And by sunday, kneeling at an alter and giving glory
It took till I was in high school, to build a life before me
Cause I got so caught up in fantasies, writing all these stories
Got to college and felt the little stings of the things that independence brings
Cause when you're skatin by, you play for keeps
Cause life is short and I can't stress it enough
I think too much about the chance of people calling my bluff
Next thing you know I fall too deep into myself
And everybody thinks taking these meds will help
When it just makes it worse and turns to hell then
Ends with me wearing a suit and tie under mountains of dirt
Or worse I'm hopped on Prozac doubting my worth (F*ck)
Think that's too dark
Let's change the subject
Tell me why it's so hard to think that we were made for something
Something much bigger than sleeping and drinking
Feeding our demons, lying and keeping
Our feelings wrapped in a box
How'd we got so conceited
So now I gotta be careful with what I say
Cause these people get so sensitive bout their image every single day
Then go on twitter
Cursing and fighting, fueling the hate
And digging peoples graves while throwing all these pity parades
This world is full of snakes that lurk down in the grass
I'm sick of them bragging bout their streams when bots are all they have
Why can't we get along
And take some blame when we're at fault
Please tell me I can't be the only one with all these thoughts
So here I go again
Tryna wrap my head around
The things that keep me up at night
While others try to shut it out
Almost 21
But I get nervous not knowing which way I'm going
So I just fake it pushing back all the debt I'm owing
Steady hoping and praying
I can live to see the day
That I have kids and watch them graduate
Get that education paid
So here I go again
Right down the rabbit hole
Waiting for the moment music will start to be appreciated
Tell me why
I can't justify
What's hard to find
I'm so terrified
Cause, sunrise I'm outta mine, I'm outta mine
Walking thin lines pushing through the hard times
Outta sight I'm outta my mind, outta my mind
Outta mind, till the day I
(Till the day I)
(Till the day I)
(Till the day I)