eraserbaby - Personal Best Lyrics

Another person, another moment
For me to lose or for me to torment
My mind with all the pain
Believing what it says
Did it again
I didn't learn my lesson
The cycle's going but I'm not present
I'll see it from the end
And wish I'd gave a damn
Oh honey, why do you build up all your walls?
It's funny, the way I don't recognize you at all
I keep coming back to it
Hooked on the negative
I don't know why I resist getting over it
I'm kind of a pessimist
I've created a mess
It always comes back to this
When will it end
Playing pretend
Going through the motions
Losing your focus
How do you give so much to exist
Your worst looks like my personal best
I'm seeing patterns in all my actions
Disappointment comes shortly after
This is what I've caused
From my self sabotage
I don't know anything
Complicated mysteries
Forgetting how to try to keep going all the time
Oh honey, why do you build up all your walls?
It's funny, the way I don't recognize you at all
I keep coming back to it
Hooked on the negative
I don't know why I resist getting over it
I'm kind of a pessimist
I've created a mess
It always comes back to this
When will it end
Playing pretend
Going through the motions
Losing your focus
How do you give so much to exist
Your worst looks like my personal best