eraserbaby - Heavy Lyrics

I'll sleep with one eye open
Watch out for paranoia
What's the medication doing?
Crystal ball, I'll see right through it
Catch myself breathing heavy
Commotion on my chest
Good luck getting me ready
For whatever's coming next
Don't believe in anything
What's the point, where's the meaning?
Catch me hanging from a string
Tied to all my hopes & dreams
I hate the way my voice sounds
My figure, and my breakdowns
Never saw what could be coming
One second gone, I'll pick up running
You don't have to be me
To know I'm obsessively in love with apathy
No more innocence left in my dreams
Heaven help me find the will
To keep up with sitting still
In my own thoughts for too long
Can't keep up I'm too far gone
I'll bite my nails, I'll bite my tongue
Everyone here is having fun
I'm envious of the thrill
I wish I could enjoy the scene
But this life's got it out for me
Weighing me down, it's so heavy
You don't have to be me
To know I'm obsessively in love with apathy
No more innocence left in my dreams
Heaven help me find the will
To keep up with sitting still
In my own thoughts for too long
Can't keep up I'm too far gone