Enkay 47 - Is That What You Wanted? Lyrics

I've got negative 1000 inside my account
My rent is coming up in a week
And my lights are out
But I've got too much pride for me to ask around
So I just keep the shit to myself
I'm too f*cking proud

My neighbors complaining my music is too f*cking loud
So I crank it up a bit, how's it f*cking now
If you've got something to say then don't just f*cking shout
Why don't you come up to my door
So I can punch you out?

I've been dealing with stress
I'm depressed
Telling everyone I'm blessed
I'm upset
I want you to be impressed
But look at the way I dress
A f*cking hoodie and sweats
Ain't no Gucci or jewelry
My f*cking life is a mess

But that's the way that you like it
So I guess I've gotta be it
You don't just want me to sing a record
You want me to scream it
You f*cking hate when I'm happy
Don't lie to me cuz I see it
Well you're about to love this record
Yo I guarantee it!

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
If I'm being real it's really hard to write this
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this
(Is that what you wanted)

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
Are you doing fine and my response is I guess
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this

(Is that what you wanted)

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
You look in my eyes and you can tell I'm lifeless
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this

Is that what you wanted, umm
Did I f*cking stutter
Answer 'for I come out your speakers
Before they rupture
I don't believe in luck
I believe in skill and structure
Or aiming lyrics at my ex
Until they killed and crushed her

Now I have to live with that
They'll put that shit on my grave
Nathan but she cheated on you
That excuse is f*cking lame
Because we were f*cking kids
Driving each other insane
I sold my soul to the devil
Just to get some f*cking plays

How many times you think I said f*ck in this song already
To make it worse I'd probably just get on a song with Freddy
So what's the topic
Um, probably blondes and machetes
Sorry for switching the topic
I'm myopic in this setting

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
If I'm being real it's really hard to write this
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this
(Is that what you wanted)

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
Are you doing fine and my response is I guess
I've gotta lot of problems to get off of my chest (Is that what you wanted)

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
You look in my eyes and you can tell that I'm lifeless
I live my life but I don't think I'll survive this

I don't know if it's what I wanted
But this is what I got
I feel like I ate something funny
My stomach's all in knots
Cuz I hate being vulnerable
I don't wanna f*cking talk
But what good is a novel
If it don't got a f*cking plot

Yeah I started from the bottom
Now I'm aiming for the top
Found some treasure in a coffin
Now I'm tryna pick the lock
People telling me
That happiness isn't something that's bought
I'd rather be what I am
Then try to be what I'm not

See I woke up on the floor
From taking pills I just popped
And vodka that I was drinking with homies
We're taking shots
Some throw up is on the floor
And this motherf*cker just walks over
Puts his hand on my shoulder and says
Is this really what you wanted

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
If I'm being real it's really hard to write this
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
Are you doing fine and my response is I guess
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this

I'm not the same as I was when I was
Just a kid and it's a lot to digest
You look in my eyes and you can tell I'm lifeless
If I'm being real, I don't know why I'm like this