Emily Melton - loss Lyrics

I'm watching you spiral
Throwing you lifelines but you won't reach out
Saying you don't know if I'm the one to save you
When everyone else can see it so clearly
Why do the ones that claim to love me
Drain my body of
Time
Energy
Patience
Happiness
It isn't love when it's transactional
I had to teach me how to love me, but I won't teach you
Doesn't it hurt when the lesson comes in the form of loss
Loss
Loss
Feeling alone in the crowd is hard enough
Now I'm feeling guilty for feeling alone
When so many people say "you're not on your own"
It's hard to be selfless when everyone else is so selfish
But I don't want to be like you
Never want to give love then take it away
How many times can you beg someone to change
Before it's time to just walk away
Hedge my bets and bail
Why do the ones that claim to love me
Drain my body of
Time
Energy
Patience
Happiness
It isn't love when it's transactional
I had to teach me how to love me, but I won't teach you
Doesn't it hurt when the lesson comes in the form of loss
Loss
Loss
You're in our bed
But I'm in my head
Now I'm wondering what gets said
When I'm sleeping like the dead
Never felt this type of cruelty
In your war, I'm nothing but a f*cking casualty
Don't even know how I became the enemy
Why do the ones that claim to love me
Drain my body of
Time
Energy
Patience
Happiness
It isn't love when it's transactional
I had to teach me how to love me, but I won't teach you
Doesn't it hurt when the lesson comes in the form of loss
Loss
Loss