E-Manual Zi - The Man Who Wasn't There Lyrics

It's torture!
Havin' a death eater caged inside
Personified himself as the shadow, INX I
"I" meaning Inkling, and evil shifting being who lives within me
I wish it could be put simply
Around every corner he waits
More sinister and unnerving than Norman Bates
Amplified by 20, I don't find it funny, nah
I'm f*ckin' petrified every time he knocks
How can it be fine? When it's all the f*ckin' time
Always in my peripheral, makin' me lose my mind
It keeps gettin' worse
Takin' the faces of my dead friends n' wearin' em'
To me, it's not pretend
He peels their eyes out, leaves his signature print
Staring back at me with that sadist grin
There's no escapin' the dark ragin' Inkling who shames Satan
Make no mistake that he even leaves the Devil shakin'

I am your worst nightmare
INX I
The man who was never there
INX I

Am I monster or creator?
Either thought doesn't make me feel safer
How am I in danger when I AM the danger?
He knows no bounds, uses my darkest memories as ammunition
It's like I relive every minute, but he
Slows it down, makes sure I watch close
Revealing he was the end to all the ones I loved most
Like he somehow pushed em' over the edge
But I thought he was only in my head
How can this be?
Is he fiction or reality?
Some product of my nightmares?
Or just traveling evil energy
I must be f*ckin' crazy, 'cause lately
A lot of what he's saying is making so much sense to me
No matter how grim it be, I know he's listening
He's in every single wall, no matter where I go
I can hear him call
He's relentless, agressive
I'm restless and fed up
For once I just wish he'd shut the f*ck up!

I am your worst nightmare
INX I
The man who was never there
INX I

I can't take another day of this shit
Each second feels like I'm losing my grip
I know I'll slip
Once I do, that's the end, there's no recovery
I become a vessel for his puppetry, no longer me
So long as I hold my own, pretend he's not there
I might have a chance, if not one final prayer
Is it odd that I'm no longer scared when I see him upon the f*ckin' stares?
(Let me in)
There he goes again with the whispering
But what's frightening is that I'm starting to like it
I'm cycling
I don't know what's comin' over me
It's getting harder and harder to see n' even harder still to breathe
Am I the one upon the stairs?
Am I the man who was never there?

I am your worst nightmare
INX I
The man who was never there
INX I

(I am the Inkling, I'm sickening
Forever vile and forever shifting
I am INX, don't forget
My very wish is just to shatter your existence
So let me in...)