E-Manual Zi - Note 2: The Ghost Lyrics

Everyone I've come to know are like leaves on a tree
There one minute n' then gone with the breeze
Missin' shadows has me dyin' from within
My sins surely grin as they tear me limb from limb
How do you save a man from a fire he stared?
Screaming mercy, keepin' that flame heavily guarded?
I'm only burnin' 'cause I brought this on myself
So don't waste your time, turn on a dime, n' save your help for someone else
Believe it or not, I once had wealth
Knew riches of love that can't be manufactured on a conveyor belt
Nah, you won't find em' on a store shelf or bubble wrapped
Nothin' compares to runnin' with that loyal pack
Makin' a pact to attack anyone who dare retaliate back
Shit, in the end, nothin' beats havin' those true friends
N' now they got me sittin' in the dark, talking to the walls again, like

Falling, Fading
Down, down, down I go

I'm crashin' bow-first, my instinct's to abandon hope
Goin' 80 naughts, count em' 13 knots in my escape rope
String em' up with the sails, cast em' as high as they go
Wavin' farewell to those below as the wind blows
This isn't a trope, no
Hard to be high when I'm so low
And I am but a mere stone's throw away form becoming the addict I tried to outgrow
N' it's hard to remain calm, try not to light up like napalm
Grittin' my teeth n' acceptin' the fact that I don't f*ckin' belong here
I might as well be a ghost here
All my words fallin' on deaf ears
Contact prohibited, forcin' my body up outta the atmosphere
Relax, I need to come down before I relapse
I need to find ground before I collapse
I'm lookin' for someone to have my back
Where the f*ck are they at?
All ya'll see is a fiend, the addict, no man in between
Thinkin' the track marks under my sleeve is reason to leave me to bleed
I can't admit defeat, but I'm on broken knees
Please someone say they won't leave n' just believe in me, 'cause I'm

Falling, Fading
Down, down, down I go

Man, it's a long dark road I'm walkin' on my own
Told to atone for my sins and hope that I don't wake the ghost
The one who sheltered me from the bitter cold
Said the driven snow is my ticket outta this hell hole
Perhaps heaven only knows how to correct my soul
But that door closed when I embraced the shadows
Starin' head on into the bottom of a barrel
How long's it take an angel to notice I'm in f*ckin' peril
Singin' a lost carol, hopin' someone is listenin'
Feelin' my words, catchin' the point, not missin' it
Everything's a f*ckin' mess, this isn't the way I pictured it
When reachin' out for mercy, feelin' like they don't give a shit
The only thing that's every made me whole is my emptiness
I've spent so much time wrapped up in this scrimmages
No one will ever know the shit I see, the vividness
N' you can have my life, because death is a privilege

Falling, fading
Down, down, down I go