Ellee Duke - Deeper Lyrics

It's not that I don't believe in therapy
But I'm paying someone $150 an hour to sit in a chair and stare at me
Waiting for me to say something
But I don't wanna say nothing

What do you wanna know?
I grew up in a religious home
Cnd most of the things I've done my parents don't even know
Been so depressed from all the shame
Living two lives with just one name

I'd sing in church
They'd say
You'll convert the whole world when
You become a famous singer
Then I drank
Cnd I smoked
Cnd I lost my innocence before I had a ring on my finger

I used to wanna please you
Cnd show you I'm enough
But all I really want is to be loved

For the me
You don't see
Cuz I've hid her so well
But I just want you to know me deeper

I want you to know me
I want you to know me
I want you to know me
I just want you to know me deeper

It's not that I don't believe in God but
Sometimes I think about it all and it feels like a lot
Cnd I know that you think it's wrong to have my questions and my doubts
But hey isn't that what life is all about?

I was so stuck when I thought I had all the answers
Got so caught up that I forgot what really matters
Forgave myself for being a self destructive disaster
Cnd then I turned to a new a chapter

I want you to know me
I want you to know me
I want you to know me
I just want you to know me deeper

I'd sing in church
They'd say
You'll convert the whole world when
You become a famous singer
I drank
Cnd I smoked
Cnd I lost my innocence before I had a ring on my finger

I used to wanna please you
Cnd show you I'm enough
But all I really want is to be loved

For the me
You don't see
Cuz I've hid her so well
But I just want you to know me deeper