Elisabeth Waters - Untitled Lyrics

I've been living in extremes
Never falling between
Black and white
Always reach for shades of gray
But can't stand clouds in my day
It's a losing fight
I hope I last the night
I'm not sure how to fall in love anymore
I think I should have kept score
All the times I fell before
I got you running round and round in my head
With all the things that I should have said
That might have kept you in my bed
But now I'm waiting for your train
Hoping I'll hear you call my name
Mocking mirror on the wall
Can't see myself at all
Just how I see you
Treading through the memories
Of who I used to be
To find a point of view
Is lying all I know how to do
I'm not sure how to fall in love anymore
I think I should have kept score
All the times I fell before
I got you running round and round in my head
With all the things that I should have said
That might have kept you in my bed
But now I'm waiting for your train
Hoping I'll hear you call my name
I could hold in my hand every hour we spent losing sleep
The pieces and bits of myself that I hid
I tried slowly to show you not give all control to a man
I couldn't know
Where all my good sense go
I'm not sure how to fall in love anymore
I think I should have kept score
All the times I fell before
I'm not sure how to fall in love anymore (I'm not so good at that letting myself)
I think I should have kept score (Dive in you're thinking that that I could swim)
All the times I fell before (Face first I'm falling flat on the shore)
I got you running round and round in my head
With all the things that I should have said
That might have kept you in my bed
But now I'm waiting for your train
Hoping I'll hear you call my name