Elijvh - Vice Lyrics

Another day has passed
Drifting away
My thoughts came together
Words I couldn't say
I'm lost
Being that someone i'm not
Pulling together
It's hard
To say mistakes I made
Put me to shame when
You feel alone in a sea of lies
And everybody by your side won't give you time
So you would push away from others
Say it'll be alright
You're all alone in your world
Where everything is right
Right?
Well, we caught up in these different motions
Of doing what we believe
And seeing where we're bogus
I ain't caught up in spite
Don't go and quote this
I'm just speaking my mind
The hate had got me focused
No lie, i'm caught up in social ties
The girl in my own life, walked up and said "good bye"
These niggas don't really get it
And no one will give me credit
For always speaking my heart
I'm telling myself it's nothing
I would say

I'm not the guy you can leave at the door
I'm always out here to search for something more

Always out here searching

And all the shit I would get, i'd ignore
Girl I don't need anyone
That's for sure

So i'd live in denial
Reliving good times made
Had lasted a while
For all the times that were bad
I'd put on a smile
Cause I was thinking innocent
I was like a child
Now
I'd see how life is harder than what it seems
Being that kid, misunderstood for what he speaks
It's tough, communication is off
Now I won't say that enough
Man all the hate I would get
I had to rise up, be tough
Cause being black and mixed wasn't the shit
When feeling like you couldn't fit in with other kids
On top of knowing you different
And others would hardly listen
Cause no one gave a f*ck about the shit
That you'd be spitting
Yeah that Outkast in the south
Saying shit different aloud
All these people gave him the doubt
Cause he would be himself, in and out
People'd take advantage of his kindness
He could hardly say he knew friendship
Cause all the people he would go to
They didn't care and just left him
Now he's looking for an answer
Growing up all alone
See his life like it's a movie, on that Oliver Stone
Now he's working for respect
But that will never be easy
Cause when you living honest
People might treat you sleazy
But that's fine, ima do me
Before anything else i'd rather need
Cause I ain't caught up with looking for help
I'm focused on changing live and finding myself
Cause any time, a spite is out of line
I'd know to stay in sight, of staying onto my grind
Cause I know that i'll make it and no one will f*cking break it
This confidence is peaking, so nigga don't be mistaken
I'm always speaking my heart
So f*ck a hater's opinion
Staying true to my sound
This game, no i'm not playing
I'll always remain real
Showing my new skills
Man, i'm changing the world while I catch up for real
Man, I would say

I'm not the guy you can leave at the door
I'm always out here to search for something more

Always out here searching

And all the shit I would get, i'd ignore
Girl I don't need anyone
That's for sure

No I don't need anyone
No, no, no

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
I need to find my way
But where do I go from here?