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Memoirs Act 2 Video (MV)




Performed By: Elijvh
Language: English
Length: 4:52
Written by: Elijah Perkins




Elijvh - Memoirs Act 2 Lyrics
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Time keeps passing by
And for many years, I've given y'all pieces of my soul
And spoke from my heart
But I'm not done yet
No
Moving through the stars and finding my re-alignment as a mortal man
Posted inside the borderlands
Wondering my purpose and my element
Since a pandemic made me feel irrelevant
I'm writing out my journey in this literary exodus
It's my time
I want this for a lifetime
Leah's tryna say"patience is my worst crime"
I'm doing my thing baby
I'll pay my dues
I will not lose
2020 was the start of the climb
When I had to fight a treacherous life
Swimming though social validation from a mobile device
Looking for stimulation on a social decline
Tears covered both of my eyes
Hazel pupils were widened by an indica high
Silenced by Keri's wisdom on a spiritual side
I couldn't map my destination 'fore I hit 29, nah
Anxiety was peaking through the roof
Niggas scrutinized how I moved
I'm a living legend
Nigga, I'm proof
I do what I do
Like a bandit with the loot
Living in southern cali on a feverish pace
Honestly, I chased vanity fame
Mixing passion with pain, I found myself in the game
That's right
Look at my mind
Look at my sins
Look at my heart
Look at my wins
Look at my vice
Look at my gifts
Look at a man trying to elevate what he is
Trauma, had me in a wicked state of depression
Karma, humbled me when my beliefs were in question
2021 I spoke out to God
Asking universal questions of my rights and wrongs
I felt lost on a path with no guidance in sight
Paranoid that I was failing in life
Nightmares of repayment that could never be made
From my parents to my friends that could never be paid
Shit, my music wasn't hitting the same
F*ck fame
Niggas ain't giving me love, flowers, or praise
Ok Sleepy Hollow, Chino Hills, man I want more
2022 shot to my front door
Met a woman, Puerto Rican, couldn't say more
I done made my mistakes
Scared of getting you pregnant
Made you my muse
Made bad commitments
Made up my mind
Gotta make it this time
On the M-Side
Writing stories under Box Springs moonlight
Same place that my parents held wedding lights
23' rolled by the wayside
Palm Springs
Doordashing
Getting nickle dimed
Thinking back on how my dad was amazed
His youngest son ain't stopping the chase
West Elm, Black Man, Compton, with a dream of financial escape
My brother Danny banged crip
My brother Scooter's preaching better days
Reading letters from my cousin Farrell that's locked up quoting Maya Angelou
Thinking how I'll bless our family name
I want change
I feel like I haven't really peeled the layers back on everything for y'all but
I'm gonna try to really meditate and tap into my truths
Alright
Reflecting at Molinos in Riverside
My energy's slowly been synchronized
Looking at my name, the culture, my grind
I ain't been myself since Dom died
Mind's feeling aimless tryna find peace
My mother's family thinking I ain't tryna link
My father's family thinking I'm too hard to reach
Conflicted in a moral state of being me
But I'm really feeling lost on a path of heaven and hell
Madeline's loving spirit was constantly felt
Anna planting wicked thoughts inside of myself
My first true love was me crying for help
She tried de-valuing all of myself
Fearing love of who I was, she told me herself"You ain't nothing to nobody else"
And that rang a bell
I wasn't black enough or asian, people couldn't tell
As the start of trauma to be
Sun illuminating colors on my widow's peak
Looking for validation from these girls that were coming to me
Abandonment issues from 19
Ain't nobody was praying for me
My grandparents wasn't alive on each side
My guidance had came from the streets
EG and Lane would give me empathy
Music was something that felt tight in my heart from a higher point of spiritual certainty
Now, here I am
Trusting in others and giving back with no"thank yous" or a helping hand
Surrounded by snakes under tall grass
But I'm trying to be a better man
Who can I call that can give me time?
When time needs me?
Who got a shoulder for holdin' valleys of all these tears that'll cascade and run free?
Why does forgiveness feel foreign in concept?
When the world ain't seeing my context?
Bloody from fighting my ex shorty's step daddy when I'm 18
All because of my ethnicity
Holdin' a grudge onto the same man whiter than a box of some dollar tree saltines
What does it all really mean to me?
Cause here on out, I give a damn what the world sees
And focus on seeing a world inside of me
Through my DNA, chemistry, and what it really means
To my true young Gz and my family tree
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Time keeps passing by
And for many years, I've given y'all pieces of my soul
And spoke from my heart
But I'm not done yet
No
Moving through the stars and finding my re-alignment as a mortal man
Posted inside the borderlands
Wondering my purpose and my element
Since a pandemic made me feel irrelevant
I'm writing out my journey in this literary exodus
It's my time
I want this for a lifetime
Leah's tryna say"patience is my worst crime"
I'm doing my thing baby
I'll pay my dues
I will not lose
2020 was the start of the climb
When I had to fight a treacherous life
Swimming though social validation from a mobile device
Looking for stimulation on a social decline
Tears covered both of my eyes
Hazel pupils were widened by an indica high
Silenced by Keri's wisdom on a spiritual side
I couldn't map my destination 'fore I hit 29, nah
Anxiety was peaking through the roof
Niggas scrutinized how I moved
I'm a living legend
Nigga, I'm proof
I do what I do
Like a bandit with the loot
Living in southern cali on a feverish pace
Honestly, I chased vanity fame
Mixing passion with pain, I found myself in the game
That's right
Look at my mind
Look at my sins
Look at my heart
Look at my wins
Look at my vice
Look at my gifts
Look at a man trying to elevate what he is
Trauma, had me in a wicked state of depression
Karma, humbled me when my beliefs were in question
2021 I spoke out to God
Asking universal questions of my rights and wrongs
I felt lost on a path with no guidance in sight
Paranoid that I was failing in life
Nightmares of repayment that could never be made
From my parents to my friends that could never be paid
Shit, my music wasn't hitting the same
F*ck fame
Niggas ain't giving me love, flowers, or praise
Ok Sleepy Hollow, Chino Hills, man I want more
2022 shot to my front door
Met a woman, Puerto Rican, couldn't say more
I done made my mistakes
Scared of getting you pregnant
Made you my muse
Made bad commitments
Made up my mind
Gotta make it this time
On the M-Side
Writing stories under Box Springs moonlight
Same place that my parents held wedding lights
23' rolled by the wayside
Palm Springs
Doordashing
Getting nickle dimed
Thinking back on how my dad was amazed
His youngest son ain't stopping the chase
West Elm, Black Man, Compton, with a dream of financial escape
My brother Danny banged crip
My brother Scooter's preaching better days
Reading letters from my cousin Farrell that's locked up quoting Maya Angelou
Thinking how I'll bless our family name
I want change
I feel like I haven't really peeled the layers back on everything for y'all but
I'm gonna try to really meditate and tap into my truths
Alright
Reflecting at Molinos in Riverside
My energy's slowly been synchronized
Looking at my name, the culture, my grind
I ain't been myself since Dom died
Mind's feeling aimless tryna find peace
My mother's family thinking I ain't tryna link
My father's family thinking I'm too hard to reach
Conflicted in a moral state of being me
But I'm really feeling lost on a path of heaven and hell
Madeline's loving spirit was constantly felt
Anna planting wicked thoughts inside of myself
My first true love was me crying for help
She tried de-valuing all of myself
Fearing love of who I was, she told me herself"You ain't nothing to nobody else"
And that rang a bell
I wasn't black enough or asian, people couldn't tell
As the start of trauma to be
Sun illuminating colors on my widow's peak
Looking for validation from these girls that were coming to me
Abandonment issues from 19
Ain't nobody was praying for me
My grandparents wasn't alive on each side
My guidance had came from the streets
EG and Lane would give me empathy
Music was something that felt tight in my heart from a higher point of spiritual certainty
Now, here I am
Trusting in others and giving back with no"thank yous" or a helping hand
Surrounded by snakes under tall grass
But I'm trying to be a better man
Who can I call that can give me time?
When time needs me?
Who got a shoulder for holdin' valleys of all these tears that'll cascade and run free?
Why does forgiveness feel foreign in concept?
When the world ain't seeing my context?
Bloody from fighting my ex shorty's step daddy when I'm 18
All because of my ethnicity
Holdin' a grudge onto the same man whiter than a box of some dollar tree saltines
What does it all really mean to me?
Cause here on out, I give a damn what the world sees
And focus on seeing a world inside of me
Through my DNA, chemistry, and what it really means
To my true young Gz and my family tree
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