Edvn - what a sad life Lyrics

Sometimes I wonder
If the nights are getting longer
Or if it's just the way my mind's been running wild
Quite hours awake in bed
Can't get these thoughts out of my head
These opposing feelings
That never reconcile
I don't know who I am
Anymore
Think I've lost track of what I'm
Fighting for
I've been broken and bruised
From pain that's self induced
And what I once thought I'd be
Has been lost so deep
Inside of me
I've been trying to stay on my feet
But the weight of it all brought me to my knees
I've been crying every night
Oh, what a sad life
I keep on thinking
On the nights I've been drinking
If it's worth it to keep on staying strong
I get scared of myself
Terrified of what's in my head
I know what I'm wishing for is wrong
I don't know who I am
Anymore
Think I've lost track of what I'm
Fighting for
I've been broken and bruised
From pain that's self induced
And what I once thought I'd be
Has been lost so deep
Inside of me
I've been trying to stay on my feet
But the weight of it all brought me to my knees
I've been crying every night
Oh, what a sad life
Wish I could be the same again
Find a way for this to end
But I know I'm not that brave
Need some help to keep me
Standing
Strong on my own
I can't do this all alone
Got to carry on
I'll carry on
I've been broken and bruised
From pain that's self induced
And what I once thought I'd be
Has been lost so deep
Inside of me
I've been trying to stay on my feet
But the weight of it all brought me to my knees
I've been crying every night
Oh, what a sad life