Eden Ari - Back To You Lyrics

I can't say your name, cause you're the one I blame
Do you really feel my pain? Do you really feel my pain too
Did you forget me? Cause I feel like nothing to you
And if you really do care, why am I still here
I hate how nothing ever stays the same
I hate how everyone keeps telling me to keep the faith
I've never been too good at doing what I know I need to do
Maybe that's how I lost sight of you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I wish I could say I'm stronger than this, but I can't
Yeah, I wish I could say I'm stronger now
But every word would feel like a shattered vow
The nights are long and my heart feels cold
Lost inside a maze of self-made sorrow
And yet I keep saying I'll change tomorrow
(I'll change tomorrow)
I'm at a loss, where to begin
My own hypocrisy burning up my skin
I've been coping way too long
So I wonder if the real version of me is gone
I hate how nothing ever stays the same
I hate how everyone keeps telling me to keep the faith
I've never been too good at doing what I know I need to do
Maybe that's how I lost sight of you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
My mind is lost in all the madness
But my heart is really had it
Yeah, my heart wants to do
Everything it takes to get back to you
I'm lost in the noise
Can't find my own voice
Feels like I'm fading
(Away)
Choices keep weighing
(Down on me)
Yet the stars above
Whisper of His love
But I'm still searching
So for now
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
I'll self-medicate
Till I find my way back to you
(back to you)
I'll self-medicate till I find my way back to you
(back to you)
I'll self-medicate till I find my way back to you
Back to you