eclipsee - Surreal Lyrics

I don't wanna do this no more
Losing the battle and I'm losing the war, oh

Yeah you got me feeling unreal
Life feels so surreal
You don't know how you make me feel
I don't even know if this is all real
Girl just please tell me if you will leave me all on my own
I already called your phone
But I don't think I wanna know

Know just how you really feel
I know what I feel is real
Even though it all feels like a lie
But that's only when I look in your eye
And I can see through the lies
Nobody's telling me lies but myself
I'm being self deprecating 'gainst my own will
Look in the future, see I made it, how would that feel?
If all the work paid off, it wouldn't feel real
But I gotta manifest, that's what I'm hearing
But that ain't easy with what I'm feeling
I'm never healing
Maybe I will only feel it
When everyone around me starts acting different
Don't know why I'm saying this, I'm not there yet
Am I telling myself a lie or just preparing?
I feel like I'm nearing the point of no return
The point where I give it my all or I just crash and burn
I might be thinking too much I got a lot to learn
Just gotta wait my turn

Life feels so surreal
You don't know how you make me feel
I don't even know if this is all real
Girl just please tell me if you will leave me all on my own
I already called your phone

I'm on my own, I don't know where to go
I feel like this is my end, it's my end, oh no
Why do I end up like this every time
I try to acknowledge my weakness and my strength
I'm tired of everything
Everything
I won't win

Yeah you got me feeling unreal
Life feels so surreal
You don't know how you make me feel
I don't even know if this is all real
Girl just please tell me if you will leave me all on my own
I already called your phone
But I don't think I wanna know