I Don't Feel Alive Video (MV)

(It's Kosfin'er, baby)
(Peso, how you do that?)
(Jondior)
(It's Kosfin'er, baby)
Yeah, at times I don't feel alive, nigga
Yeah

And at times I don't feel alive
In zombie mode but I'm still 'gon slide
Gon' put my life on the line before I ever watch my nigga die
Face to face can't you tell that I got empty eyes?
I feel the chance to kill the one that killed my dawg, it might make me cry
Yeah, and that's the truth
I hope you happy 'bout this pain I'm rappin' 'bout, that's all you
Learn myself, ain't no man out here show me how to move
Keep my distance, used to look up to that nigga as a youth

Open wounds, only proof of the struggle that we came from
Now I got my little change up
It's probably only right I change up
'Cause lately you been actin' strange, Blood
Never thought I could obtain love
But the way that she been actin' got me thinkin' I could feel
Them death threats ain't respected, 'til you show me that it's real
Strap my cleats, throw a backplate on my Glock
It get lonely in the field
Nobody trustworthy can't even take the homies on a drill
He been around me for some years, but I don't know him
Thought you was my homie
You showed your true intentions you really phony
Switch close as I'm watch niggas closely
Pops said he got me, I'm hangin' on to what he told me
(My bro don't know what he told me)

'Cause that's the only thing that keep me strong
Family fake every week I change the number to my phone
Can't tell you what's goin' on, I'm present but I'm really never home
These voices been distractin' me from my goals
And every time I slide, I tell my brother that this the last time
And then I go dribble a little more
Inside of me there's a hole, where my heart supposed to be
Wishin' my Pops would wake up, so it be hard for me to sleep
Walk into court, head down I know the drill, I'm from the streets
Read me my rights, 'cause you ain't gettin' shit from me (Gzzz, ayy)
Before I turn myself in, I would be wrong if I ain't pop nothin'
How you 'gon care about your life when you ain't got nothin'

Yeah, lil' bro ain't got no type of motion, he's just opp huntin'
F*ckin' with niggas that's tryna kill me, Gales we not brothers
Speak on my name 'cause I ain't put you on, that's not a hunnid
Rrari World, I'm satisfied with life I know what I did
Box Glocks inside my head, with murder scenes that I'm fine with
Walk a nigga down with fooly switch, you gotta try this (yeah, yeah)
Has somethin' happened in your life that made your mind switch?
'Cause when I came out the womb, I wasn't like this

And at times I don't feel alive
In zombie mode but I'm still 'gon slide
Gon' put my life on the line before I ever watch my nigga die
Face to face can't you tell that I got empty eyes?
I feel the chance to kill the one that killed my dawg, it might make me cry
Yeah, and that's the truth
I hope you happy 'bout this pain I'm rappin' 'bout, that's all you
Learn myself, ain't no man out here show me how to move
Keep my distance, used to look up to that nigga as a youth