Porcelain
Five years old
First contact
Never too young to make a contract
My blueprints
Supposed to last
I don't remember the walls made of glass
Learned to protect myself with a facade
Hide what I want
Easier said than done with a mask on
I can't take off
I've got a secret but I can't afford for you to hear it
I've built a habit but I haven't got the heart to break it
Yeah, you're putting all my common sense in past tense
I've got thick skin but it's all porcelain and shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Crowd of three and I'm the one left out
And that was feeding this version of me now
I was folding like paper-mache
Just an ember catching into flames
Learned to protect myself
All my defense is counterfeit
Harder to see the truth
My confidence is almost spent
I've got a secret but I can't afford for you to hear it
I've built a habit but I haven't got the heart to break it
Yeah, you're putting all my common sense in past tense
I've got thick skin but it's all porcelain and shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Look don't touch
It's hard enough
When you got a lot to lose
Call my bluff when I'm too tough
I need you to cut me loose from the prison I'm in
In my own mind
Yeah, you carry me through when I'm too tired
I've got a secret but I can't afford for you to hear it
I've built a habit but I haven't got the heart to break it
You're putting all my common sense in past tense
I've got thick skin but it's all porcelain and shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Shattering
Oh, shattering
Sour
I color the walls, so I can watch the paint dry
Time is a myth, so I just let the clock die
The waitin' is breakin' and it's takin' its toll
A kiss on the lip and a crack in the soul
If we keep pushin' our luck
It's gonna catch up
It's sweet, but it's bitter, you're gone for the winter
It's a worry of mine
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
Just day old wine
I don't wanna act like these butterflies
Aren't my worries comin' to life
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
But not the good kind
Hours away from bein' miles apart
You're takin' a plane, and you're takin' my heart
It's such a shame that nowhere feels like home
What's there to gain if we're sleepin' alone?
If we keep pushin' our luck
It's gonna catch up
It's sweet, but it's bitter, you're gone for the winter
It's a worry of mine
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
Just day old wine
I don't wanna act like these butterflies
Aren't my worries comin' to life
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
But not the good kind
I'm pickin' my battles and you're pickin' me up
Piece by piece
I'm missin' the point 'cause I'm bottlin' up
All these memories
I keep on thinkin' that you'll be home
'Cause I know that's where you wanna be
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
But not the good kind
There's blood in the water, I don't wanna drift farther
So, I'll see ya tonight
It's sweet, but it's bitter, you're gone for the winter
It's a worry of mine
Like oil and water, it's the heat of the summer
It doesn't sit right
I don't wanna act like these butterflies
Aren't my worries comin' to life
Like lemons in water, it's a hit of the sour
But not the good kind
Sucks 2 Be Us
I'm sorry for the both of us
Tried to move it but it won't budge
It's useless when it's locked shut
Is it good enough
If push never comes to shove
We can fake it but only so much
If only you knew that I'm trying to help you
Never picked a side 'cause I never had to
I wish you could see how much it's killing me
It sucks to be us
I guess we jumped the gun
Too close to the sun
I'm burnt and I'm done
It's sucks to be us
We make it light, we make it fun
'Til the blood starts to run
Another band-aid, another cut
It sucks to be us
No, I don't wanna be wrong
But when the right things comin' along
I'll miss it if I take too long, mm
Am I just hanging on to loose ends at any cost
I'm scared to take the loss
I hope you know that I'm trying to help you
Never picked a side but now I just have to
Wish you could see how much it's killing me
It sucks to be us
I guess we jumped the gun
Too close to the sun
I'm burnt and I'm done
It's sucks to be us
We make it light, we make it fun
'Til the blood starts to run
Another band-aid, another cut
It sucks to be us
Does it make me another hypocrite
If I don't wanna live like this
It's a feeling I'm not gonna miss
It was a handshake
Did I have my fingers crossed
Had a good game even if we lost
It's not what we wanted
It's what we got
It sucks to be us
I guess we jumped the gun
Too close to the sun
I'm burnt and I'm done
It's sucks to be us
We make it light, we make it fun
'Til the blood starts to run
Another band-aid, another cut
It sucks to be us
Hindsight
It's not always black and white
Goodbyes work only half the time
My favorite pastime is a crooked line
Between now and reliving a past life
Really wish that I could look backwards
Put the car in reverse and look at me now
Everything looks better in the rearview with a little hindsight
Hindsight
2020 vision only comes through with a little hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
I get the fear of missing out
I'm kinda stuck in a roundabout of memories
I'm overdrawn and I'm losing count
If I'm guessing I'm heading for a breakdown
Reminisce too much to look forward
I get out of reverse when I know it's true
Everything looks better in the rearview with a little hindsight
Hindsight
2020 vision only comes through with a little hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
Can't lie, it's a state of mind
I'm too delicate to vacate it, mm
Can't lie, it's a state of mind
It's all innocent 'til you can't quit, mm
Everything looks better in the rearview with a little hindsight
Hindsight
2020 vision only comes through with a little hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
Hindsight
(Hindsight)
Perfect Light
On a highway back to Eden
And it takes a while
The high road takes a beating
But I'd walk a mile
Rain or shine
It's a sign of the times
That I'm taking the dive
But only with you
You're what a Saturday morning's supposed to feel like, like
It's a comin' home feeling after a long night, night
When everything's bad yeah, you take me to the garden
Breath of fresh air, it's a new beginning
Take a mental picture
Catch you in the perfect light, light
I'm a hostage to the feeling
That I'm not allowed
To give into the healing
But it's solar power
How you turn
What's supposed to just burn
Into beautiful words
And now I'm brand-new
You're what a Saturday morning's supposed to feel like, like
It's a comin' home feeling after a long night, night
When everything's bad yeah, you take me to the garden
Breath of fresh air, it's a new beginning
Take a mental picture
Catch you in the perfect light, light
You're the comfort in the chaos and
It's a little taste of heaven
You're the one who breaks the tension
My favorite intervention
You're what a Saturday morning's supposed to feel like, like
It's a comin' home feeling after a long night, night
When everything's bad yeah, you take me to the garden
Breath of fresh air, it's a new beginning
Take a mental picture
Catch you in the perfect light, light
Golden Child
Private school kids sipping hot toddies
Caring how you're using your money
Catchin' up 'cause you're scared of slipping up
Your daddy bought the beach 'cause your mama's out of love
Always said that you would never play the game
There you go you put your old self to shame
Running round in circles just saving face
Every minute that you fake
Tell me why you think it's so much fun
To keep your image up but lose your touch
You really seem to make your parents proud
I'm glad they finally got their golden child
Golden child
No one wants third wheels at the party
Only here to be your cover story
Innocent 'til your parents get a whiff
You can call it what you want or you can call it what is
Always said that you would never play the game
There you go you put your old self to shame
Running 'round in circles just saving face
The final straw's about to break
Tell me why you think it's so much fun
To keep your image up but lose your touch
You really seem to make your parents proud
I'm glad they finally got their golden child
Golden child
You're living on a perfect record
'Cause you've never been caught
You think you control the future
With your stocks and bonds
You're betting it all for nothin'
'Cause you never felt loss
You're living by a broken mirror
Not who you think you are
Tell me why you think it's so much fun
To keep your image up but lose your touch
You really seem to make your parents proud
I'm glad they finally got their golden child
Golden child
Golden child, yeah-yeah, oh
Greedy
Time is always slipping by
Every breath I'm taking in
Is leaving as fast as this moment
I haven't even changed this clock
Seasons have changed but I have not
The rhythm to me just feels so off
Drop by drop
I'm filling my cup
If I had the choice
I'd choose to drink it up
I don't know what I expect from you
But I know that it's too much
You've always given me the best of you
But what if it's not enough?
You always say you'll come back
But that only makes me see the space between us
Don't wanna hear that I'm the lucky one
When all I feel is greedy
When I saw the painted sky
Thought it was for me
Not happenstance
Is it a sign or accident? Mmhm
I've heard it all a million times
Trust what you feel until it hurts
As long as you're using the right words
Drop by drop
I'm filling my cup
If I had the choice
I'd choose to drink it up
I don't know what I expect from you
But I know that it's too much
You've always given me the best of you
But what if it's not enough?
You always say you'll come back
But that only makes me see the space between us
Don't wanna hear that I'm the lucky one
When all I feel is greedy
I try to change you
When both of us know
If I really loved you
I'd love if it showed
Patiently you wait
Like a candle waits to burn
You let me be the one to say
I've got so much to learn
I don't know what to expect from you
Without asking too much
You've always given me the best of you
When I am not enough
You always say you'll come back
But that only makes me see the space between us
I wanna feel that
I'm the lucky one
But I can't help it
I'm greedy
Brother, Sister
Brother, I am in the corner
Wondering what it's supposed to mean
I'm not sure if I even know her
The girl I used to be
I showed you the side of me that's terrified
Even my closest friends don't see
Just kids on a cul-de-sac in the suburbs
It was okay to make believe
Sister, we were in the corner
While they were drunk and dancing on
But we were sober 'bout the future
Wondering how it all went wrong
We made a pact when we were little
We wouldn't leave each other alone
When I was scared to start that new school
My only friend helped me belong
I'm here
Don't you disappear
I'm here
Don't you disappear
Brother, I'm scared of getting older
The innocence of youth is gone
Another mirror, another reminder
That I'm farther and farther from home
But brother, I am here with you
Even a hundred miles away
'Cause the blood we share is thicker
Than the shadows we both face
I'm here
The shadows are fading away
I'm here
They're fading away
Sister, I'm not good at showing
That I'm panicked and I'm stuck
I use my phone like it's a drug
Another hit to pick me up
I know I'm hiding from the feeling
That I'll scared I'll never know
What's inside the walls I'm building
'Cause I fear it's got a home
I'm here
Don't you disappear
I'm here
Don't you disappear
Don't you disappear
I'm here
Don't you disappear
Primadonna
Crushed a dream in half an evening
Wrong place and wrong time
Hit the ceiling
Stop believing
All heroes can fly
You built a reputation
Turns out it was laced with copyrighted pages
I read 'em all
And ignorance is bliss 'cause now I kinda wish I was still in the dark
Catch me tearing down the posters on my wall I, wall I
Liked you more before I really met ya
You paint yourself so pretty prima donna, donna
But you make it so easy to forget ya, ooh
Better off before I saw ya
Leave my love prima donna
Called your bluff, now ya gotta
Leave my love prima donna
I made you a super human
I guess that's my bad
It's so strange it takes so much to
Make a villain sad
You built a reputation
Turns out it was laced with copyrighted pages
I read 'em all
And ignorance is bliss 'cause now I kinda wish I was still in the dark
Catch me tearing down the posters on my wall I, wall I
Liked you more before I really met ya
You paint yourself so pretty prima donna, donna
But you make it so easy to forget ya, ooh
Better off before I saw ya
Leave my love prima donna
Called your bluff, now ya gotta
Leave my love prima donna
Oh, I guess that's what you get
When you're dancing with all your fake friends
In a castle made of lead
The party always ends
You'll watch the world go right around without ya, out
I liked you so much more before I met ya
You paint yourself so pretty prima donna, donna
But you make it so easy to forget ya, ooh
Better off before I saw ya
Leave my love prima donna
Called your bluff, now ya gotta
Leave my love prima donna
Hang Around
You're just what the doctor ordered for me
You're one of a kind, yeah, I can barely believe
It's like you were tailor-made for me
I don't even mind that I've been losing my sleep
So calm, so collected
More than natural selection
God knows, I'm not gonna apologize for nothing
Call it what you want
More than just obsessive
All I want is for you to hang around
If you're like a fire
Then I'm pouring gasoline
I just wanna hang around
If I'm like an earthquake
You see past the fault in me
I just wanna hang around
Your old soul is new for somebody like me
Heaven knows that I've been trying to come clean
Times are changing but don't change a thing
You're just like a daisy pushing through the concrete
So calm, so collected
More than natural selection
God knows, I'm not gonna apologize for nothing
Call it what you want
More than just obsessive
All I want is for you to hang around
If you're like a fire
Then I'm pouring gasoline
I just wanna hang around
If I'm like an earthquake
You see past the fault in me
I just wanna hang around
Don't mind if I take the blue pill or the red pill
I know this effect is more than just placebo
Can't lie
Sometimes I can be possessive
All I want is for you to hang around
If you're like a fire
Then I'm pouring gasoline
I just wanna hang around
If I'm like an earthquake
You see past the fault in me
I just wanna hang around
I just wanna hang around
Oh, I just wanna hang around
Gelato
Life's a piece of cake
When everybody's fakin' on a paid vacation
Get a wake up call shake the glitter off
Got no reservation
Means to an end but nine out of ten
You can't shake the feeling
Running the clock 'cause it never stops
Maybe I needed some healing
Smooth like gelato
Bright like gold in Monte Carlo
Blew my savings on the lotto
That's the motto
Forget the bill, yeah, fill your cup, gelato
Fresh like Boulder, Colorado
We don't know about tomorrow
That's the motto
We came to thrill so fill your cup
If it's gonna burn doesn't pay to learn
So get back to work on nothing
Soft to the touch and fresh out of luck
You can try but you can't outrun it
Smooth like gelato
Bright like gold in Monte Carlo
Blew my savings on the lotto
That's the motto
Forget the bill, yeah, fill your cup, gelato
Fresh like Boulder, Colorado
We don't know about tomorrow
That's the motto
We came to thrill so fill your cup
(What's your favorite gelato flavor?)
(Vanilla, do they have vanilla? No)
(Stracciatella)
(Smooth like gelato)
(Gelato, is so delish)
Smooth like gelato
Bright like gold in Monte Carlo
Blew my savings on the lotto
That's the motto
Forget the bill, yeah, fill your cup, gelato
Fresh like Boulder, Colorado
We don't know about tomorrow
That's the motto
We came to thrill so fill your cup
(Forget the bill, yeah, fill your cup)
(Vanilla, do they have vanilla? No)
(Stracciatella)
(Smooth like gelato)
(Gelato, is so delish)
We came to thrill so fill your cup
Shelter
When the monsters and the nightmares
Dance around your bed at night
I was ready, waiting right there
I would turn on all the lights
When the constant conversations
And the comments made you cry
I'll take all the heat
Spare you the fire
If I could protect you
'Til my last breath, you know that I would
I'll never let you
Believe the worst, no, I never could
Wherever you run to
You'll always have a hiding place
I'll be your shelter
Whenever you can't hold the rain
Maybe I get superstitious
But I worry all the time
I collected and projected
All the fears that haunt my mind
But the real world yeah, it's knocking
And I know you wanna try
So I'll be there cheering from the side
If I could protect you
'Til my last breath, you know that I would
I'll never let you
Believe the worst, no, I never could
Wherever you run to
You'll always have a hiding place
I'll be your shelter
Whenever you can't hold the rain
Didn't know it
I've been scared to let you go
Seeing a side of
A side of me I didn't know
Didn't know it
I've been scared to lose control
If you ever wonder, if you're covered
I would to let you know
If I could protect you
'Til my last breath, you know that I would
I'll never let you
Believe the worst, no, I never could
Wherever you run to
You'll always have a hiding place
I'll be your shelter
Whenever you can't hold the rain