Dyception - Struggle to Swim Lyrics

Yeah, forgettin yesterdays is a pain weighin on me heavy
Shit tries to wear me out, my heartbeat frowns, cuts deep down like machetes
Like I'm, roamin through the jungle, try to be humble
Feelin on edge and I'm tryin not to stumble
Fumble, as my life starts to crumble
Everyday is the same, mundane, but I gotta stay ready for the rumble
Ready for the tumble
Dizzy from the circles til I'm drained like a funnel
This tunnel, leads straight to a white light
Shit takes a toll like a collector at the turnpike
By now, figured I'd be used to it
Hands bleedin from, squeezin on my crucifix
I take my licks, wonderin wtf is the use of it
Yeah... so... why you get to cast stones livin in a glass house
Are you listenin, or am I speakin to the stars now
Is there a purpose or am I addin to the scar count
I've tried to lean on you but you always let me fall down
I'll pick myself up since you never put a hand out
There's no doubt, that you made me tough
Made it rough, leavin my mind as a place that is dan-ger-ous - now I'm numb

I feel like I am drowning, while swimming to the shore
The waves just keep crashin down, and down I've been before
Hit snooze for the 100th time
Cobwebs as I wake my mind
I'm shakin, debatin if I really give a f*ck if I show up late, man
Or am I just gonna leave it vacant
Just a job, I can find replacement
But be patient, it could be amazin
Til then I work til my fingers bleed bustin out the pavement
I'm chasin, every dollar earned
But there's a hole in my pocket in my chest I can feel the burn
Like I wanna do somethin, but too tired to function
6 days a week and that's time consumption
So my line don't ring cause they know I can't go
And I'm f*ckin lonely cause I'm always single
So I scroll through my phone til it hurts to look
And every time I wanna go out my friends are booked
So I sleep away my day then it's back to work
The dates a blur, they say time flies and I must concur
I'm caught in monotony, over drafted like a lottery
Smile through it all, livin life in hypocrisy
Voices screamin go die, leanin on democracy
Standin on the skyway, silent on the highway
13 reasons why, and this song is f*ckin my tape!

I feel like I am drowning, while swimming to the shore
The waves just keep crashin down, and down I've been before

I'm bouncin off the rocks bottom
Telltale signs, I can always spot em
I say I'm fine, hush hush on my problems
Ask questions, I rush just to dodge em
Flip the script, take the focus off me
Talk about you, I listen closely
I keep it locked up and swallowed my key
Now the walls are closin
Pressure builds up like the waves of oceans
Commonplace now like goin through the motions
I'm feelin so f*cked, life forgot the lotions
I'm hopin, that this shit aint showin
I'm sunny on the outside, inside frozen
So leave me out to thaw
At fever pitch I'm throwin underdogs
My head's a haze, get me out this fog
My way's a maze and

I feel like I am drowning, while swimming to the shore
The waves just keep crashin down, and down I've been before