Read Between the Lines Video (MV)

I swear I'm screamin for help, but it's fallin on deaf ears
Layin awake, but still stuck in a nightmare
I'm feelin alone, even knowin you're right there
Down to the bone, it's cold when it's all bared out
Just tryin to figure it out, it's like I'm thirsty for some Solace but I'm stuck in a drought
I'm steady searchin for the answers, but I'm hindered with doubt
So many f*ckin what ifs it's got my head in the clouds
Now I worry til I get sick
Alienated on my spaceship
In a room filled with friends, I'm still feelin like it's vacant
But I swear that it ain't blatant
Just hard to love the skin I'm in, that hatred like a racist
Not so black-and-white when obsessin over greys
So many thoughts and insecurities got me mixin up my days
And I'm so f*ckin tired all I do is lay awake
And wonder why my brain is so obsessed with razor blades

It's like I'm locked in a jail cell
Caged in with my own hell
These walls tell a story, but the pictures ain't paint well
Entrapped with my past, the mistakes I was makin
The things I took for granted all the sudden are taken
A harsh f*ckin lesson, but the message has sank in
And all those high f*ckin hopes all explodin and tankin
BANG, Frozen as it unfolds
A sky rainin fire I'm surrounded with the brimstone
Now I'm face-to-face with Satan
To sell my soul to a sadist
The best joke the devil played was to be disguised as the greatest
Pride over everything, I refuse to make the changes
Now I'll wear these scars forever, these terms are set by Layman
Lustin for what's past knowin time is never patient
I was selfish and so lazy, a glutton no debatin
So angry with myself, a wrath I have awakened
But these seven deadly sins got me mistaken

Workin on new chapters, set forth for Better Days
But I'm lost in insecurities, I'm puzzled with this maze
Who the f*ck am I, is it too late to make a change
Is suicide my Epitaph or am I fit to ride the waves
Will happy ever find me, will scars not always define me
Will anxiety and depression live inside me
My mental health's declinin, the white light ain't so blindin
And I'm so f*ckin lost I just can't seem to find me... Damn