Dyception - Forgive Me Lyrics

Yeah I stare my mistakes in the face
Devil on my shoulder, but it's a weight I embrace
Things crackin all around me like a porcelain plate
Dodgin obstacles, man I'm caught in a maze
Screamin with no words, only hear your heart as it breaks
Through the pains and the aches
Got my riptor scale shaken from the strength of the quakes
But I, never apologize, open ended arguments these fights are agape
Tears stream down your face
Yeah you try and set the standard, but I can't keep up with the pace
So I, run away and disappear without ever leavin a teace
Outta breath from the happy I chase
Feelin like a dog caught in a cage
Blinded with rage, not realizin a couple kinks away from breakin the chains
Got me gunnin for the stars with weapons aimed at my brain
Seems like everytime I need the sunshine you make sure that it rains
So feel my pain, but also, hear me when I say

Made mortal, so I was set to die
So when it comes to livin life ima wonder why, am I here?
Try to listen when you're speakin but demons cloggin up my ears
Supposed to have this faith, but I'm blinded by my fears
But I'm wiser by my years, yeah I'm learnin as I'm livin
Sinned so many times, yet never pray to be forgiven
I roam around my defense but never put in my position
Always one to speak, but never one to listen
Always one to give, but not one to ask when there's no pot to piss in
After all, man was doomed to work until he glistens
So I run myself in circles and wonder why my head is spinnin
Try to close my eyes, the opposite of angels I envision
The insomnia is deafenin, the silence not a peep
It's eatin me, it's beatin me, it's no wonder I can't sleep
These debt collectors callin me, these grey clouds follow me constantly
Til I'm weak, but you're with me and

Spite me almighty spiter
On September the 26th you know you bore a fighter
Not one to just lie down, not one to just bow out
So keep that fire comin cause I'm used to the heat now
Lost but now I've found
The path destined, I'm star bound
Fought got my scars, count
I see the big picture after vision was blurry
People came and gone, fast like a flurry
In and out in a hurry
But that's the past, beneath me, it's buried
Used to weigh on me heavy, but now I'm no longer worried
Cause it's quality not quantity, not concernin the numbers
I was chasin the lightning but ignorin the thunder
And man enough to admit when I blundered, and I'm sorry
But I needed the beatin
Yeah humbled by my hardships but thankin God that I'm breathin
My heart has been bleedin
On my knees I am pleadin
I've searched for every other answer, but it's you that I'm needin
It's you that I'm needin