Dyception - Anxiety Lyrics

Voices man, they echo in the silence
Disconnected differences that balance in my eyelids
The dissonance is leavin prints my fists are clenched in violence
I'm a danger to myself, yeah I'm the mirror man's resistance
Persistent, always pushin to do better
But in my mind I'm short I got this personal vendetta
Like my ship has sailed, and ima pirate with no treasure
Rainbows in the distance but brainstormin through the weather
NOW I, Trek the path Ive chosen
The past Can't Let It Go my soul is cold as Elsa's Frozen
I smoke a bowl with melatonin try and float away, I see the buoys cross the ocean
And now I'm givin chase
I'm stuck in second place
I'm runnin with the tortoise as the hare is setting pace
My Palms across my face, and it really f*ckin sucks at 26 I'm falling further from my grace
But it's hard to claim I'm lonely when I also need my space FUCK

I got this monster inside of me, I f*ckin live with anxiety
Yeah, I got this monster inside of me, I f*ckin live with anxiety...
Missin pieces in the puzzle
Secrets deep inside of me my lobotomy
I mute em with a muzzle
Astounded by the things I found now drowned into a muffle
Rain clouds pounding down and now I'm walking through the puddles
That's anxiety... yeah that's anxiety

Yeah, so lemme paint a different picture
People turn to the bottle, others to the scriptures
I'm somewhere in the middle but can't seem to find my fixture
Mind is racin 8s it's forever now I figure
That's overhead like management
I'm f*ckin sick it's cancerous
The damage in my brain, cerebral's got no bandages
Abandonment, issues I can't handle it
It's f*ckin got me pushin people out just to see whose f*ckin family
DAMN, and I ain't wanna be the issue
Don't wanna be your basket case so f*ckin keep your tissues
Don't treat me with the exceptions, no need to preach no reverends
Just be inside my life man I need to feel your presence
Don't wanna be no burden, and I know I'm far from perfect
So lemme know I'm wanted I just need to feel a purpose
I'm hurtin and I need to feel I'm worth it
I'm sorry for the trouble man but I struggle feeling worthless... damn

I got this monster inside of me, I f*ckin live with anxiety
Yeah, I got this monster inside of me, I f*ckin live with anxiety
Missin pieces in the puzzle
Secrets deep inside of me my lobotomy
I mute em with a muzzle
Astounded by the things I found now drowned into a muffle
Rain clouds pounding down and now I'm walking through the puddles
That's anxiety... yeah that's anxiety

I see the devil come to knock again
Serpent's skin like a moccasin
I see the devil come to knock again
Outta breath like no oxygen
That's anxiety... yeah that's anxiety