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There's a little monster in me
And it lives inside of my head
There's a little black cloud
And it's always hovering over my head
And I've tried every day to run away
Trying to escape this feeling of dread
But it lives in me like a disease
It wanna see me drowning in a river of red
Circle the drain and find me
It's happening again and you despise me
There's no f*cking reason
When I'm always looking for something else
There's no f*cking pleasing everybody
When they wishing me, wishing me well
And I really wanna stop
But I can't drop everything
When I'm almost at the end
And I really wanna try living my life for myself
I don't wanna go through it again
I'm not ashamed
Don't box me in
I'm not the same as I was back then
Everything has changed
I been re-arranged
Not a little kid like I was back then
I'm not ashamed
Don't box me in
I'm not the same as I was back then
Everything has changed
I been re-arranged
Not a little kid like I was back then
Circle the drain and find me
It's happening again and you despise me
Changing my ways seems unlikely
Don't want this pain but it's inside me
Put myself back together like a f*cking jigsaw
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna do this anymore
Put myself back together like a f*cking jigsaw
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna do this anymore
Put myself back together like a f*cking jigsaw
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna do this anymore
Put myself back together like a f*cking jigsaw
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna do this anymore
I see you posting shit on social media
I don't need you bitch
Numb my feelings with a needle
Dead anaesthetist
Not an addict bitch
Don't give a f*ck about a tolerance
Take so many pills
I'm turning grey like a rhinoceros