Dear Daniel Davis Video (MV)

Dear Daniel Davis there is a couple of things I need to say
First off, I want to apologize for not writing back the other day
There are so many thoughts in my mind, and the shit don't go away
A constant picture of Austin asking why the f*ck you couldn't stay
It's a question till this day that I still haven't had answered
See I knew you went to jail, but the why is like a cancer
It sickens my brain to the point where standing ain't a standard
I have to sit down to gain composure and let my thoughts be a disaster
A tornado swung around my mind and that's just from thinking
A tsunami hit my head and I'm drowning while I'm drinking
I tried swimming in my pain, but I got too much weight and I'm sinking
Papa wait! Please don't go! I'm trying to swim and I'm kicking
The eight year old me had so much hope for being hopeless
Went on another year, and he's nine and he's homeless
Everything mama said about you, all I thought was it was bogus
I'm in tears while mama talks, hoping she doesn't notice

Why is it so hard to say that I miss my best friend
The one who was there, he'd be here till the end
The things that they told me, just can't comprehend
I would do anything to see him again
Why is it so hard to say that I miss my best friend
The one who was there, he'd be here till the end
The things that they told me, I just can't comprehend
I would do anything just to see him again

Remember when you colored me a dinosaur that day
I remember it exactly you turned black into grey
My f*cking hero would always leave me amazed
You're who I wanna impress a god in my brain
Dad, I'm sorry for what I did. Dammit now it's your turn
I'm tired of going through papers just so I can be hurt
I'm tired about rewriting this shit just so I could be heard
Reading about the shit you did, how the f*ck does that work
But to tell myself the truth I don't think it ever will
See I got scars from mama's ex boyfriends that won't heal
See I wrote about this shit, it's what gave me my skill
It was all because of you and that's too f*cking real
I've never wanted to give you up past that day
To be honest lately I don't give a shit what people say
I don't care what you did, I just need here to stay
Dad I love and everything will be okay

Why is it so hard to say that I miss my best friend
The one who was there, he'd be here till the end
The things that they told me, just can't comprehend
I would do anything to see him again
Why is it so hard to say that I miss my best friend?
The one who was there, he'd be here till the end
The things that they told me, I just can't comprehend
I would do anything just to see him again