Dutch - First Time (Goodbye) Lyrics

Each time is like the first time
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next
You know this will be the last time
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath
All I asked you for was one try
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept
You're not even worth a goodbye
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

She wanna grab me by the throat but she strippin' my gold
Never thought that I was young but I'll die if I'm old
I been flexin' in the beamer movin' weight with my bros
Never thought that I was wrong but never do what I'm told
A main girl that's just something to hold
Rather run through 50 more and watch my sorrow unfold
I'm a lonely f*ckin' boy and it's all that I know
Please don't try to change my life please don't show me your soul
I just want the dough get mom a crib on the coast
I know I thought I loved you but you taught me to ghost
Cuz' what the f*ck is love if you need it the most
Something that's missing when you hold it so close

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

Each time is like the first time
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next
You know this will be the last time
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath
All I asked you for was one try
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept
You're not even worth a goodbye
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

She thinks she's just a girl, but she's all that I know
I told myself I'm strong, but I need her the most
I been kissin' bathroom floors since I got diagnosed
It's her love keeps me livin' I don't need to be dosed
It's dark and its cold when the sorrow's unspoke
I been grindin' on my veins till my feelings unfold
I never thought I'd live to see myself growin' old
What the f*ck's a story if it can't be retold

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

Each time is like the first time (all that I know)
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next (need her the most)
You know this will be the last time (all that I know)
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath (need her the most)
All I asked you for was one try (all that I know)
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept (need her the most)
You're not even worth a goodbye (all that I know)
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left (need her the most)