Don Pharaoh - Care Package Lyrics

Will I amount to what I envy most
Or will I fall behind and be the one they sympathize, whenever all this set and done, I'm
Hoping for a twist of fate
As my praying turn to wishing for the thousandth time
Or should I clench my jaw and bite this bullet till I die
And do just how I'm told and give my life up in this bribe
But shit I wanna live the life I want and not be questioned why
All this outside pressure got me breaking down behind the door just f*cking leave me alone
Ain't got no social presence so don't ever be on my phone
I'm introverted so I'm always focused staying at home
At this point in life where I'm just focused on my self growth
Dragging myself through all this frustration and pain
I wanna tell ya bout it but we not on the same page
I fear to let you in cause what if all this time devoted
Don't reflect in mirrors so I'm steady building till their ain't no chance for me to fail
Head between my knees to yell, But

This chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell

Where do I go I'm in the open lost
And so I'm vulnerable to what I see as sense of hope of getting out this loop and free, I'm
In a tender state of mind
That I dwell in deep without the sting from every gulp
But now my radius for space increases as result
And friendly fire holding what we know as arsenal
I see my vision as a casualty, so force to let you go
All this pain you fight to keep your place with me exposes love and open arms all again
My grades been slipping building who I am for point of this pen
And plans to drop out for my reason got me pleading the fifth
Am I wrong to say it's God who pushing me to this synth
Discussing for hours, over life from out of the box
Anticipating plans above our heads for more than jocks
I only tell a few to dodge the twisted face of body language taking me as jokes
As I'm rushing through the path impossible for wealth
Feeling hopeless out my shell, But

This chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell
But this chip on my shoulder keep my composure
God must've dropped this as my Care Package through hell