As I cross the gates of the damned
There is no return
As I destroy everything I love
I can't help but smile.
Maybe I enjoy the nothing I create.
Maybe I just like the unbearable pain.
Maybe I'm hoping that it destroys me too.
After it all I destroy all that I feel
With these chemicals comes a nothingness so comforting
There is no helping me.
Where I am there is no coming back
Depriving my body of all that it needs
Replace it with razors, pain, coke and weed
Crying for help
Crying to anyone
Someone to tell me I'm not the only one
I've heard it before
But I need it again
Something
Just something to help me defend
Defend from these thoughts that ravage my mind
Please don't let yourself be the one to find
Me