I Want Sunflowers to Grow Video (MV)

Mama thought she planted a sunflower
Bright
And beautiful

But she was wrong
She planted a rose
Dark blood and envy
Tongue sharp like thorns that grew to protect
Heart cold but soft like the petals that cracked
Off
Been used and sacrificed
For the
Name of love
No wonder her rose wilts
And tears herself apart
Ridding itself of all the red drips of blood
Till it's a skeleton
With barbed wire
Cutting and tearing everything apart
Even
Her own mother's heart

So tell me you love me
So I can cut off your tongue
To remember the pattern it made
When it ended my war

But listen

Love is patient
Love is kind
But damn is it selfish when it comes to my mind

I ruin everything
Sometimes on purpose

How am I suppose to offer everything when I know nothing?
How can I build something,
When I've been stuck with my own foundation?
Blurring the instructions into lines
Why can't I put myself back together?
Petals in the water

My heart is a skeleton
Left over bones
Ice cold
Shatters under the warmth of your touch
How cold

So I took my anger from you
And dropped it like missiles
On the innocent eyes watching

You found me caged in my well built cocoon
Made from my brittle bones and rotten flesh
But you made me open up like the rest
A butterfly
Just so you can feel needed
Teach me how to fly just with you and only you
Why to fill the void she left in you?
Agape inside of you?
The one you've had

So
Love is patient and it's kind
But yes it messes with my mind

But I want sunflowers to grow
In the saddest parts of me
I want sunflowers to grow
In the hollow parts of me
To allow myself to breathe
To reflect where light can't see
To be beautiful